What we could've been

In my viens

"How do I make the pain go away Maya" I say as I look at the sunset

"By letting everything go sweetie" she says

How Maya? I don't know to handle this. The pain, and her never knowing him. How? How can I just let it go" I say trying to hold in my tears

She takes both of my hands making me face her " I know it hard riles, but you have to let him go. You need to let go of that pain. Think about her she's doesn't need to feel pain. Make her feel happiness"

"How do I let go peaches" I say looking at her

She reaches and grabs the locket around my neck "by letting it go. Let it go Riley. Take it and say all ur feelings and just let it disappear"

I look down at the locket that once filled me with sweet memories. I grip it tight "I'm letting you go"
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This can't be real. No no! I let him go years ago he can be here! This is a dream! a bad one no no.

I turn slowly keeping my head down praying  that it wasn't him. I slowly raise my head and
My body went numb. When I met his gaze.

"Lucas..." I whisper

My vision was unclear by the tears forming but I can still make him out. The six foot tall texan boy. It's been five years and his still as handsome as I remember. His face  features smooth and clean and eyes that look into my soul.

I quickly shut my eyes and my hands clench by my waist no! Why now! no! What do I do?

My thinking is interrupted by the feeling of hands on my cheeks. They sent a feeling of warmth through my body that I missed

"Riley please look at me" he says begging

I shake my head . "Your not real" I say trying to control my emotions

"I'm here! Please look at me! I'm real, I came back for you" he says place his forehead on mine

I open my eyes as I look into his " you came back? You came back? Why!?" I yell

"I needed you riles. I missed you."He says

Anger  boils in me and he says those words. I break from his embrace " you needed me!? Where were you when I needed you!!" I yell  pushing him back

"Riley I couldn't do it! I didn't know how! But I'm here now!He yells trying to get a hold of me

"NO!! I needed you five years ago! Were you u five years ago when I need you! When we both needed you!!" I yell

Riley please! We can fix things! We can be together again!" He says pulling me close to him

I quickly squirm trying to get from his hold.

" NO!! YOU LEFT US!!YOU LEFT YOUR DAUGHTER ! I CALLED YOU THE DAY SHE WAS BORN . EVERYONE DID AND YOU IGNORED THEM ALL! YOU BROKE ME!YOU BROKE EVERYTHING  WHEN YOU CHOSE YOURSELF!! I sob as I hit his chest with my hands. Hurting  him with all the pain he caused me years ago

"Riley I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" He says backing away from me

"NO! You can just come back and say sorry! I yell at him as I turn around

I feel arms wrap around my waist as his body presses against mine. The heat that he sends through my body. The electricity he gives me.After five years his still in my veins. After five years  I still can't get him out of me.

"Please Riley I beg you! Don't leave me. We could start all over and we could be something."

I push his hands away and look at him " how dare you! How dare you ask me to not leave you when you left me 3 months pregnant!!" I yell pushing him

"I loved you! I would of gave you everything that was mine! We could've been something so beautiful! The three of us! But no! That will never happen! I say through my sob

He rushes towards me and he places his hand on my face bring me to look him in the eyes

" give me one good reason why it won't happen! I know you still love me as much as I do. We can fix it Riley. Please" he sobbing

I push him away " you want to know why it will never happen! This is why it will never happen!"   I say as I rise my left hand to my chest pointing to the ring on my finger

I watch as he slowly stumbles back

Okay new chapter tell me how you guys like it! Sorry it took me awhile to update I've had homework and work so it took lot of my time. Anyways I hope you guys enjoy this chapter

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