Felix opened his dorm room, his head was spinning. He knew hyunjin would be home. It irritated him very. But he just accepted it. Hyunjin was his roommate for this year of college.
"Are you okay?"
He heard.
He could only gaze to his left to look at hyunjin whom looked concerned.
"Fuck off hyunjin." He blurted. His mouth was really dry. He took that moment to open the fridge. They really were out of groceries like hyunjin argued. He couldn't admit though.
He was so drunk he couldn't really focus on one thing. He shut the fridge. Placing his head against the cold refrigerator door. It made his head feel a lot better.
"Sorry for showing any type of concern Felix."
Hyunjin scoffed.
"What groceries do we need." He asked. His voice was slurred, his eyes were shut as well.
"Felix you know this isn't like you."
"Hyunjin I didn't ask that, I asked for the groceries."
Felix said.
But truthfully now that Felix thought about it, it wasn't like him at all. This time last year Felix wouldn't have even touched a party scene. Nor drank. Or did any of the shit he did now.
Between college live and his stressing love life. It changed him for the worst.
"Felix I'm more worried about you right now. Since when do you do things like this? You were never a party person Felix, you never drank."
"Hyunjin, can you please stop? You do understand that you don't even know my favorite color, yet, you could name your favorite parts of my body?" Felix said his body language was so disoriented as he stepped closer.
It seemed his mouth was fighting a war with his brain as his words came out as if they were breaking down.
"You don't understand hyunjin."
"So tell me Felix, tell me what I don't understand."
Hyunjin boldly took a step closer as well. The two looking each other in the eyes. Felix just finally broke down, a tear slowly falling, and gracefully hitting the floor.
He'd been focused on being a tougher person. He forgot to not let his emotions ball up.
"I love you."
Felix said softly.
"It's so fucking stupid—" Felix started, he covered his vulnerable eyes, feeling hyunjins hands slowly hold the outer of his arms, trying to get a grip on what Felix was saying.
"But it wasn't you that I loved."
Felix said.
It hit hyunjin hard when Felix said this. Because it wasn't him. It was the fake him. The one he put on so he could take advantage of Felix.
"I loved the fake version of you, that's why I'm so hurt. I want that to be real, but it's not."
"I can make it real."
Felix just shook his head.
"No you can't."
"Felix I have feelings for you. That summer I over thought a lot of things, my own brother even scolded me. He even told me I was stupid—" hyunjin brushed his thumb over Felix's eyes, both of them, they were just flooded. The make up running down his face.
"Just.. one more chance. I give you my whole life."
He wasn't even sure if Felix would remember any of this. He would probably only remember small fragments.
"Okay."
Felix said softly.
He let hyunjin hug him.
A feeling he wanted to feel for a long time. He just sighed into the hug, The sigh was more relief, he clinched hyunjins body closer, his head full engulfed in hyunjins chest.
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Hii, how is everyone doing ?
