DON'T GIVE UP (ENGLISH-BLAM- boyxboy)

CHAPTER 4: THE DECISION

CHAPTER 4: THE DECISION

Kurt arrived to the apartment where Blaine, Sam, Santana and Brittany lived. Sam had asked his best friend to sleep in his bed while the girls were there because he didn't want him to be uncomfortable on the couch. There was no way he let him sleep on the couch while he was pregnant.

The women offered to go another place, but the boys didn't let them. They couldn't go to Artie's because he had four roommates and they lived in a three-bedroom apartment. They couldn't go to Kurt, Rachel and Elliot's because they still use fabrics to separate the rooms. And they wouldn't let them go to a hotel while they can share their apartment.

Santana opened the door and she smiled sadly when she saw him. She knew he was there because of the pregnancy and it wasn't pleasant. Kurt came in and looked at his ex boyfriend, being held by Brittany while Sam was looking at them really sad. Brittany and Blaine's hug would be adorable if it wasn't for his swollen eyes and his red nose. That made it really dismal.

Kurt felt like a knife cut across his heart. His relationship with Blaine had broken up some months ago, but he still loved him. It was another kind of love, but he really cared about him... Like a friend or a brother. He knew there was a lot between them, but he thought he was one of the most important people in Blaine's life.

Kurt wanted to help Blaine because of that. It was really painful, but he need to be there for him. He sat down next to Blaine and tried to comfort him touching his thigh.

"How are you?" Kurt asked sweetly. Santana sat down too and looked at Sam really confused.

"Pregnant" It was the only word he said before crying again. Brittany tightened the hug. Brittana and Sam had been with Blaine since they thought he could be pregnant, trying to make him feel better. They knew it was a difficult task, but they would make the effort for him.

"How can I help you?" Kurt asked.

"Do you have a Time Machine where I can delete everything?" Blaine didn't move while he spoke.

"No, I didn't, but... What are you going to do? I guess you would have an abortion... It's better for you, you aren't ready and you are busy. You must focus in your career and..." Kurt stopped talking when he realised the threatening y derogatory looks from Sam and Santana.

"Don't listen to him." Santana stood up and found a way to sit down between Kurt and Blaine. It wasn't really difficult because she was too slim. She took Blaine's hand because she wanted him to listen. "We told you, it is your choice. You know the pros and cons, only you know which cons you can deal with. Not Kurt, not Sam, not Britt, not Cooper, not your parents, not me... You know what could you face."

"I think I can't have an abortion." Blaine whispered and new tears fell for his cheeks.

"You don't have to." Sam kneeled down in front of him. "Whatever you decide, it will be the best. If you don't want to have an abortion, you just need to decide if you wanna be a father or not. Will you discard it?

Blaine nodded and, for the first time since he knew he was pregnant, he was sure about something. Sam smiled a little, with love and understanding. Kurt hated it, he felt like he was a stranger and he left.

He was in the corridor, near the stairs, when Santana arrived.

"He's having a really bad time and he doesn't need you telling him what to do. What if he decides to do it and he regrets it after that? He can't go back and he is the one who will live with the consequences. We didn't tell him what to do. We listen to him and support him, but he doesn't know what we think about that."

"You can't tell me you don't think that having an abortion is the best for him." Kurt challenged.

"I don't think so. I know Blaine, the one who always thinks about the other's good before himself. That's why having an abortion isn't an option for him. I think I know the best for him, the choice he will chose and we will be aunt and uncle before we expected it."

"He will ruin his life." Kurt started to cry.

"I think he will do it if he has an abortion. Give him time, we want him to make the choice alone. We don't want anyone to influence him."

Blaine came into Sam's room after throwing up, like every morning. He knew Sam was there, picking up some clothes. Blaine had made a choice about his pregnancy and he wanted to share it with his best friend. He knew it was silly, that they weren't a couple and they would never be, but he wanted him to be like a boyfriend for him... At least, as long as he can do it.

Sam was there and he smiled when he looked at him. It was that smile, the one he did only when he looked at him.

"Do you still are sick?"

"I just vomited. I hate mornings, I can't be like that for long."

"I read on The Internet that it will disappear on the fourth month." Sam said and Blaine didn't know how to feel. On one hand, he was happy because his best friend had read about pregnancy for him, On the other hand, he was sad because he still had two more months to be sick.

"Can we talk?" Blaine asked, he wanted to change the topic, he wanted to talk about other things. It was painful to think about his love and look for clues to believe he is in love to when it is impossible.

"Sure... About what?" Sam sat down on the bed and looked at him.

"I will have the baby and I will be his or her father. I know it won't be easy, but I don't want to leave him. It's my baby, no matter how he or she was conceived. The baby is a part of me and I can push him out of my life. I will look for a place to move on." Anderson caressed his belly for the first time. There was a baby inside him and he smiled. He had been all the night thinking about it and, when he assimilated what had happened, it had been easier than he had thought. An abortion never was an option for him, he couldn't stop a live and... Well, maybe the baby would be better with a family who wanted a kid but he couldn't be sure the baby wouldn't be in a children's home. He could take care of the baby, maybe it wasn't ideal, but he could do it. His parents supported him. His father was going to retire one year later and they always wanted to move from Ohio. They had thought about Los Angeles because of Cooper but when Blaine had said he would live in New York, they didn't know what to do. They wanted to be with his sons, but they had chosen different coast to live. However, Blaine's pregnancy decided for them.

"Are you going to move in?" Sam frowned, he was sad because he didn't want to live without him.

"Sam..." Blaine sighed. "I'm going to have a baby, who will cry every night, the house will be a mess... You don't have to live like that, it isn't your choice, it's my responsibility, not your's."

"I want to be with both of you. That baby is your's and I can't do anything but love him. I'm sure he would be as awesome as you."

"This apartment is small, there are only two rooms and the baby will need one..." Blaine tried to explain but the other cut off.

"We will find another place... For now, the baby can sleep in your room. We can save some money if we stay here for a while. We will need the money because having a baby is expensive, diapers, formula, a lot of clothes because they grow up too fast... We will get it."

Blaine looked at him with mistrust. He didn't know when Sam decided to be a father, but he wouldn't let him ruin his life. He was twenty three years old and he had a lot to do before having those duties. The baby wasn't his, even when Blaine would love it, but he was straight and he would meet a woman who would have a relationship with and he would let him alone forever. He didn't want it, so he had seven months to convince him.