The Preacher's Daughter ✝

05 . ✝

Blossom AJ'a Higgins

I felt to sick to even think this happen to me . I blocked everyone from my life and kept to myself . For the most part Kendrick has been giving me my space and I respect him for that . If he's seeking something more out of this , I don't know how to break it down to him , but I don't want to be in a relationship . I'm about to graduate college with a degree in therapy . I'm happy for the most part . That's the only thing that lit up my day .

"It's been damn near 4 months and I'm seeing that beautiful smile I like to see ." Kendrick said sitting on the opposite side of the couch .

"I'm just happy ." I told him .

"May I ask why ?" He asked me .

"Cause baby I GOT A DEGREE IN THERAPY !!!" I yelled hurdling off the couch .

Kendrick got off the couch with a wide smile and came closer to me to give me a hug . "I'm proud of you ." He spoke above my head .

My head was under his chin and I snuggled on him . I really needed this moment . I literally busted out crying in his arms . We ended up in his bedroom . I just kept on crying , but the situation always seem to beat me up whenever I'm happy .

"What happen that day when you got home looking all beat up?" He questioned me .

I've been holding this from him for a long time , cause I didn't want to talk about it . I really made myself look like a fool begging for him , but till this day I want him . I sighed .

"That day was the day my life ended . The only thing I cared about walked out on me . That day was one of the worse and just talking about makes each thought of it worst . The moment he chocked me I felt abandoned and betrayed . He lied to me , he said he love me . He said I was his everything . We was supposed to get married , but he replaced me with Sarah , yes Sarah in your classroom . The same woman who stole what was mines . They had a child together way before him and I got together . He told me and I accepted . He left me for her and now their married with another child on the way . That day he kilt me emotionally . He let his wife beat me till I was the color of purple . I couldn't even move . He drove me around 20th ave and from there everything went wrong . I tried to get back with him even after all of that . I kissed him and he kissed me back , but he started getting aggressive with me and it brought me back to the day I got rape . He stopped cause he knew I was in pain from him bitting my lips . I gave him back his engagement ring and that was that . He blocked my number and I stopped trying and his pretty happy with his life without me , but I'm unhappy with him out my life ." I told him the story off the back of my head .

"Not to jump into proportion , but did you feel as though it was all your fault?" He asked me .

"Of course it was my fucking fault . I wouldn't be in this situation if I kept that damn vodka out my mouth ." With shame written all over my voice ,

"If I told you an Angel told me you was going to be at the club to rescue you , would you believe me ?" He asked me .

"Yes." I said .

"How sudden ?" He asked me .

"Because Kendrick , you're not the type to be in clubs ." I stated .

"True , would you also believe that he told me you was going to be mines ?" He asked me .

"Yes." I said . If God sending Angels to Kendrick , then I will be Kendrick's girlfriend . I shouldn't dwell in the past . The future is calling my name .