I sit here crying.
Knowing I'm not the one she's looking for.
My heart keeps breaking.
And drops of blood keep landing on the floor.
My expectations keep rising.
Although I already know what's in store.
I close my eyes for a second.
Picturing life as it was before.
So easy and kind.
But now what do I find?
A world of sadness and pain.
That look in my eyes will never be the same.
My mind is starting to kill me.
And I can not stop it.
Whatever it is doing to me.
It's taking over more.
I wish that I was dead.
A gun pointed at my head.
Maybe I would be better again.
But either way I'm a looser.
Because I know I have nobody to call a friend.
I'm alone is this world of sadness.
Not another soul around.
I can't keep going on in this madness.
This world has come to the end of its tour.
I'm getting off the train to nowhere.
Where I will go I do not know.
But it's got to be better than here.
