LEXI'S POV
I hear our front door close and I knew that cam had already left I just couldn't believe he told Taylor he said he wouldn't and that's exactly what he did I change into pajamas and get into bed I'm looking at my ceiling just zoned out when my phone buzzes and it says I have a message from cam it reads
Cammy😍💞: promise me you won't hurt yourself anymore. Goodbye.
To Cammy😍💞: I promise
I hit send but what does he mean goodbye? I decide not to think about it and go to sleep.
*5 weeks later*
It's been 5 weeks since cam told Taylor and I haven't heard from cam ever since he haven't come over I text him but he doesn't respond I have cut myself even though I told cam I wouldn't I just couldn't help it I go to Taylor's room and ask about cam 'hey have you heard from cam?' "Ya he's been in New York" 'New York?' "Yea he moved their" after he said he moved to New York I couldn't believe that
I went to my room and decided to call him it rang about 4 times and it went to voicemail I texted him a lot of times
To cammy😍💞:I need to talk to you
To cammy😍💞: why aren't you answering me
To cammy😍💞: when were you going to tell me you moved to New York
To cammy😍💞: Cameron
To cammy😍💞: please answer me
I decided that he wasn't going to answer and that he's gone for good.
CAMERONS POV
I finally finished my apartment and getting settled in I decided to lay on my bed for a while and take a brake I was laying on my back when my phone kept going off I looked at it and I had messages from Lexi
From lexi🌺:I need to talk to you
From lexi🌺: why aren't you answering me
From lexi🌺: when were you going to tell me you moved to New York
From lexi🌺: Cameron
From lexi🌺: please answer me
I hadn't told her I moved to New York but I told Taylor and he probably told her today but I had to forget her and the only way to do that was move away from her and lose contact with her so I decide to delete her number after I did that I felt my eyes drift off to sleep.
*8 months later*
LEXI'S POV
It's been a while since cam moved he never texted me back so I knew he was gone I've gotten worse my birthday passed I'm 18 now the rest of the guys found out by Taylor and they don't really talk to me as much as they used to butt I guess that's what happens people think your a freak but cam didn't think that he only wanted to help me I just now see
All the sadness wash over me next I know I'm reaching for my blades and I press one onto my arm and slide it across I do it over and over the blood drips onto the floor my white tile floor is stained with red drops Taylor has seen it but I guess he's just to tired to even care but I am to I look at myself in the mirror and I look pale I put up my best friend and lay down on my bed
I always think I whispered to myself aloud I'm done. Crying, fighting, trying. Im just done I say it to myself over and over cause I believe it and that's how I feel I lay emotionless not a care in the single world it's weird cause most nights I wonder where I'll be in five, ten maybe fifteen years but then other nights I wonder if I'll make it that far.
TAYLORS POV
Lex has gotten worse and I don't know what to do anymore all the guys found out and I guess they don't talk to her as much cause I rarely see them talking or hanging out I walk past her room and I can hear her saying 'I'm done. Crying, fighting, trying. Im just done' the thought of my own sister killing herself brakes me but I don't know what to do
She doesn't care to cover up her scars anymore she just lets everyone see I decide to text cam to see if he knows what to do
To cam: I need to talk to you
From cam: what's up man
To cam:it's Lexi
From cam: look I want to help but she pushed me away and I don't want to help her
To cam: Cameron please she's gotten worse
From cam: Tay I'm sorry
To cam: Cameron
From cam: I have to go
Well I guess that's it he doesn't care for her anymore but I can't loose her I walk in her room and she's laying down on her bed with her arms out and I see fresh ones Lexi? I say in a whisper afraid she won't answer my eyes start to water "it's hard you know, hard to feel unwanted to feel worthless like a piece of crap it's really hard and I don't want to be alive anymore I know it may hurt you but I think your the only one who will care no else will so when that day comes I don't want you to be sad or upset or saying its your fault cause it wasn't I just want you to know that" I honestly didn't like that I have full on tears running down my cheeks I walk up to her and reach for her hand but she yanks it away "Taylor please leave I don't want you in here" she say and I brake into more tears
I don't argue I just walk out of her room and close the doors think to myself will she actually do it?.
CAMERONS POV
I was sitting on my couch watching tv when I got a text from Taylor
From Taylor: I need to talk to you
To Taylor: what's up man
From Taylor: it's Lexi
To Taylor: look I want to help but she pushed me away and I don't want to help her
From Taylor: Cameron please she's gotten worse
To Taylor: Tay I'm sorry
From Taylor: Cameron
To Taylor: I have to go
I didn't want to remember everything that happened with Lexi I didn't want to be reminded of her because she pushed me away I just didn't want to deal with her but it was mostly because I fell in love with her it did hurt me when Taylor said she got worse but I had to shut my feelings off for her I had to I've been doing great here in New York so I can't remember her or go back to L.A I sigh and whisper to myself I'm sorry Lexi.
<><><><><><><><><><><><>< update yay I think this is the longest chapter I've written so far but like and comment what you all think of this one and vote see you guys next Saturday😆😆
