For those who know me , im a hotheaded person who gets caught up in her emotions.
I don't really think before I act.
I lash out some words which I regret later.
I myself am quite weird.
The amount of sleep I get determines how much I talk . The amount of sleep i get determines the chances of me flaring up and then spouting ugly words. And also the chances of me going crazy over my anime and manga stuff.
I do apologise if I feel guilty about it ( my words ), but if my sincerity doesn't reach my victim , I doubt I can really do much already.
Begging someone who will never forgive you is just a waste of time.
But by begging that someone to forgive me , I feel better.
However, in this world not many forgive.
Many hold grudges.
Many say hurtful words not meant to be heard.
I don't like you.
I hate you.
I despise you.
Go away.
Leave me alone.
Are you deaf ?
Can you die already?
Piece of shit go away.
Do you not have legs ?
Do you even have a brain ?
Why are you so stupid ?
Why did your mother give birth to you ?
Why were you even born ?
Are you born stupid?
You're such a burden.
Do you know that I would appreciate it if you never existed ?
Words hurt a lot more than a knife does.
Some people do recover from a stab.
Not all do , but majority does. Actually, it depends on the depth of the injury and where it is aimed at.
A stab can be aimed at the heart , or it can be aimed at your foot. Whether it can be treated or whether it is life-threatening just depends on where that stab is pointed at.
As we know , knives are sharp. Just like words are.
However , were words meant to hurt ?
Were they specially made just to hurt someone ?
Were they made to make someone cry ?
Or did they have another meaning ?
I like you
I love you
I need you
But for the above 3 , they are just said when no anger is directed towards you.
They are more of happiness.
More of it.
Doesn't mean there aren't any sadness in it.
Yay !
Yummy !
Wow !
Stunning !
Beautiful !
Amazing !
Fantastic !
Wonderful !
Fabulous !
Marvellous !
Majestic !
Just some words to say how ecstatic you are over the situation.
In modern times , everyone justs say something casually depending on their mood.
Not much consideration taken in their words.
I also don't think before I act.
I myself ain't very mature too. My cousin says I overthink at times.
But if you think about it , over thinking may somewhat be like thinking before you act.
Im not the kind of person who has went through lots of hardship , or has family problems , or lives in a country where im not contented with.
In fact im pretty happy.
But there's always a downside to things like how words can cut you into ribbons.
No need for weapons.
No swords , guns or kungfu required.
Just one mouth and one voice is needed.
Or maybe one social media account.
Its that simple.
Im pretty sure that language wasn't meant to hurt.
I mean , happy words are created for a reason.
They bring joy to someone else's life .
Like how your teacher says
" Well Done ! " when you get full marks for spelling tests.
" thank you " when you give a present to your friend.
They were meant to bring joy and happiness. Brings a smile on your face.
But in another way , they can bring loads of hurt. Im no fan of self harm or depression.
To me , its disgusting. Not saying that I loaf people who do have those kinds of problems.
Im more of a happy bee.
But words themselves have caused many problems in the world.
Girls suffer from depression. Girls self harm. Girls committed suicide.
Boys having low self esteem. Boys being bullied. Boys self harm.
Words are strongly connected to feelings .
Hapoy words may just be switched into something hurtful in a way.
" thanks for telling the teacher I cheated in class "
" majestic ! You finally learnt how to spell encyclopaedia at 13 years old ! "
" oh my god. I love you for telling mummy that I took her phone "
Sarcasm can be one of the worst forms of hurt. Being a naive person , I sometimes can't tell when others are using sarcasm especially over social media.
Some people's intentions are showed with their actions .
They may say,
" I love you ! " with this glint in their eyes showing that they actually want to stab you , kill you or roast you over a flame. Take a knife , put it in your mouth , take another knife , stab it in your stomach , let all the blood bleed into a tub.
When you try to scream , the knife in your mouth cut you in the tongue , making you bleed more of your precious blood.
But without using knives , people already have an inbuilt weapon. Polished shiny , they can use it anytime they want. Its called their voice.
Even if they lose this weapon , they always have a second weapon called social media.
Words can hurt.
Words can cure.
Words can brighten up your day, yet words can make your day gloomy.
Or in other cases , gloomier.
Via wattpad , im going to share my views on certain stuff.
Be it words , be it cookies , be it the simplest things in life .
But , my thoughts will be conveyed via words.
6/9/15 xh
