Bad boys and broken hearts. {WATTYS 2017}

Chapter 32 // You should be happy

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Weeks have gone by and now OTRA is finally coming to an end and each day that has passed, I have avoided Zayn. Avoiding someone who is always right there is extremely hard but extremely worth it. Everyday instead of taking shortcuts to get somewhere, I had taken the long way, because I didn't think neither of us could handle the outcome of the conversation we'd have.

As I walk back into the stadium, I have to busy myself with my thoughts to block out the fans harsh words. Fans are just as bad as the paparazzi and as volatile as a hungry pregnant alligator. Don't get me wrong, some are really sweet. Turning the corner to head to Liam's dressing room, I get pulled into a dimly lit space and come face to face with Zayn. His honey coated orbs are hooded over with a emotion I can't read. I look down at the ground and try my best to leave mentally because I surely can't physically.

"Why have you been avoiding me, E?" Zayn asks.

"I don't know what you're talking about, Zayn..." I answer.

"You know exactly what I'm talking about. You've been avoiding me."

"We're no longer together, I am dating Liam. I can avoid you all the fuck I want."

"So you're saying you don't get weak in the knees at my touch? Or reminisce every memory we've made together? Or even think of the future we could of had together if... If I didn't screw up?"

He pauses after his words, thinking things through before running his fingertips across my cheek.

"Of course, why wouldn't I? You were my first time, my first love, my first everything." I whisper hoarsely. "But you screwed up and I'm with Liam. I'm happy, I might have thoughts about us but I am happy and I think you should be happy with Savannah."

"I can't ever be happy with her when I love you, Eva. Why don't you understand that?"

I push pass him without answering his question, I've allowed this conservation to go on long enough and now I'm crumbling inside when all I wanted was to get over what we had. As I make my way to Liam's dressing room I can tell what emotion lies on my face and I only hope Liam doesn't recognize it. I push open the door, seeing Lou tousling Liam's hair into a quiff and him staring down at his phone. He looks up at me and smiles, pulling me into his lap. Lou steps back finally done with his hair and playfully glares at me.

"If you mess up his hair Eva, I will end you." She says.

I laugh at her as she walks out.

"Have you ever had sex backstage at a concert?" He smirks.

"Let me see... I had it in the shower, in a bed and once on the floor, so no I don't recall so." I recall, turning my body around to face him.

"Do you wanna?"

"Omg. No!" I jump off his lap.

"Well then you owe me when we get the hotel." He stands, snaking his arms around my waist.

"That I can do." I kiss his lips softly.

I follow Liam to the stage or at least till we part ways. The sound of thousands of screaming fans surround me. I stand next to Karen and Geoff, allowing them to envelop me into a group hug. Karen's signature sent of cinnamon engulfs my airways and it makes me want cinnamon toast. We pull apart and turn to face the stage. The boys are late as always and it honestly wouldn't be a One Direction concert if they weren't late. Finally, they come out and the entire arena becomes a thousand times louder.