I spend a weekend at my mother's house and i feel happy! I feel happy because i can go out. There isn't my grand-father. And it is probably because i don't live there 24hrs.
I went to Montreal i saw photos in the world press photos and it was pretty impressive. After my friend, my sister and me went at Queue de castor it's actully québécois it's kind of pancakes with what you want on it and it's just so good. We always get addicted! My mother, my step-father and my mother's friend joined us and we went eating and walking in the old Montreal. We ate ice cream and made jokes a lot! It was pretty fun!
Today i swim with my sister and my mother. After we went on bike to a park for eating ice cream close to water. And the ice cream was so much goooood! We came back and we watched How i met your mother!
While watching how i met your mother i though of depressing though... Like i wanna feel good! I feel good! But i know that when i'll come back at school, i won't feel good... I know that when i'll come bak to my father's house i won't be happy to see my grand-father... I know that my depressing though are gone only for a little while...
They don't go away. They don't give me a little chance to be happy more than two days...
I know that when i'll come back in my room... I'll cut myself...
I can't keep watching how i met your mother to be happy...
What if my life was only gave to me to be unhappy, depressed and lonely?...
What if i have to wait only one year to be happy? Only if it's school that put me in those moods? What if my life is so much better after school?
It's long... But i have to see... So i promess you guys, i won't kill myself before seeing what is it after school. I promess to give my life a chance.
Good night :) And people you have the chance to see me in this picture. I won't tell wich girl i am. But there's actully my sister, my friend and me in this summer while we were seeing my uncles and at this moment it was the epluchette! You can guess in your mind who i am. But only people who knows me will know wich one i am :)
Well have a nice day or night with good dreams :)
