Before you read this chapter i just want to warned you because i wrote something that could offense you. And this message isn't for everybody, you know. I say you but it's not you, YOU. You know? Get it?
I've been rejected and made new friends. I've made friends who stayed so long. The must of the time... Something happen.
It's like... Having friends wasn't my thing. I don't like to go to their birthday party, i don't like to listen to their problems.
No i'm not selfish because i don't like to hear their problems. I'm just bored of doing this. It's been so long that i just listened what they were saying but shuted my mouth.
I have my closest friends that i will always be there for them. I would do anything for them. I am a good friend. For people who mean something to me. People who did something that counts.
I'd rather watch Harry Potter, or Once upon a time. Sometimes people are crying for stuff that dosen't do anything to me. Like i don't even feel bad for them. People cried, i didn't care.
I actully don't give a fuck for a lot in life. And... My own life is in that...
I'm so tired. Tired of listening people, to make them forget me or smiling and do like i appreciate them. Tired of making jokes when i don't feel happy or anything. I just want to listen my music and make everything on mute. But sadly it dosen't exist! Let's cry a little bit! Haha
You know where i'm really myself? On Tumblr! This is the real me. Why would it be only on Tumblr that i could be me?...
Shut my mouth and listen the teacher. If you want success your life you gotta have a job and do what everyone do. Wake up at the same hour every morning, go to my job, do the same thing all day, come back to my house at the same hour, and finally go to sleep at the same hour again. People thinks that they have a life... Hahahaha let me laugh.
Having a facebook account and see friends in the weekend and let yourself drink a little bit more dosen't mean you have a life. You don't live!!!!!!!!
Go see what's is on this planet! Go in a place where your not in cozy little couch with dog! See other humans that didn't have your chance! Go help people who didn't have luck in life! Don't stay in your house telling yourself i'm so lucky i live in a place where there isn't war! GO HELP THEM!!! Feel guilty for saying that to you. Feel guilty because you didn't do anything for people have been killed. And for people died because they didn't had the help they needed because people like you can't even get themselves out of their couch.
Feel guilty because there is always gonna be humans who will need help one day. These people are human. As same as you. And you didn't wanted to help. God if your dying or you would need help because your in a country and you're trying to find your childrens or family but you can't because you already loose a leg in this war. You would like someone to help you to find these persons you love so much.
God!!!! It's humanity...
