Bellarke ignited

01: Guilt

"May we meet again."

Hidden behind the thin line of trees, I take in my family for the last time. I cherish their smiles and forgive their flaws, placing each and everyone of them inside a box at the very back of my mind. But another box is kept open, the one that holds the reasons for why I will leave- for why I will leave them confused and empty, wandering where I went and why.

I allow myself one final glimpse of home before taking two hesitant steps back into the forest. My brown boots crush the leaves that lie along the dirt floor, loud crunches sounding through the air. Like a scream for all those who have fallen in the eyes of the trees, or a victory cry for the ones that flew. Either way, they call out for us- The 100.

Being near them equals to being stabbed in the heart because, after what I did, nothing feels the same. Knowing that I caused the death of hundreds of innocent people is slowly destroying me, even if I did save my own people for it. The mountain men never did anything wrong, they just wanted their chance at living on the ground. Although I might just be saying that because they're all dead, because I doomed them to lie in a coffin of stone.

Hopefully Bellamy will understand my decision. Maybe he'll tell them not to follow because he knows I need to be alone. Or maybe he'll lose it himself and send out a search party that's bound to fail.

Bellamy,

My co-leader and friend. The guy who knows what I truly feel. Even if our bond isn't very visible, it's still there.

~Bellamy's POV~

Clarke is gone- or I should say going. I see her now, taking slow heavy footsteps through the forest, her pretty blonde curls bouncing against her back with each movement. I can't see her face but I don't need to see it to know that her fire is gone, that her eyes are empty, the determination that used to live in them dead, her past slowly killing her.

Shes going yet I don't stop her.

Clarke and I are polar opposites yet I still understand her better than I understand myself.  She was always the strong one, not physically but mentally. And now when I think about it, I realise that that's not a good thing. Her strength is what gave her the ability to kill the mountain men, and that decision is what makes her who she is today- weak.

I avert my eyes from the now empty forest to look back at the fire next to me. Boiling water bubbles and pops in its cauldron, reminding me of all the other times I've had to do this for Clarke back at our old camp. Not exactly for her but for all her patients who were sick with illness.
Back then I always ignored my love for Clarke, hiding it with insults and cruelty all directed at her. Back then, nobody saw her for who she really was. Strong but smart, friendly but fierce, a leader and a role model.

A burning sensation explodes on the back of my hand. A droplet of water had flown out of the cauldron, forcing me to acknowledge the fact that the water is about to boil over.
Grabbing a filthy brown rag, I recklessly cover the handle of the pot and lift it up with an exaggerated huff.

A quick check of the camp shows me that Dr.Griffin sits by a small wooden table next to one of her patients. I place the pot on top of the table, receiving a nod from Griffin.

The patient gives me a small smile as Griffin begins to speak, "Thank you Bellamy." Her voice is strained and raspy, a cause for concern. She grips the side of her stomach where an injury lies, even hurt she chooses to help others- just like Clarke.

I hesitantly put out a hand to rub her back, hoping it will help in some way or another. Dr.Griffin looks up at me in confusion so I pull my hand away. Her eyes scan the camp hesitantly before landing them back on me, worry evident on her face.
I know what she's going to say before she says it, and I dread the question she's bound to ask.

"Bellamy," she whispers, "Where's my daughter?"

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A/N: Hey my readers,
What did you think of my first chapter? I thought I'd write this considering the new season of the 100 is coming out soon! Eeeek!
I cannot wait, there're so many rumours about it- like a pregnancy for one of the characters!
Anyways, this chapter was edited by JadeyGlader  so go check her out, she has an awesome maze runner fanfic for all you maze runner fans ;)