Bellarke ignited

08: illusion

"Bellamy leaned back with a sigh and closed his eyes, wondering how long it would take until she stopped being the last person he thought about before he fell asleep".

- Bellamy about Clarke.

~Clarke~

Tripping over my own two feet, I half run/ half stumble through the damp, green forest.
I don't know where I'm going but I know I just need to run, because any minute now the grounder could change his mind and come running for me again with his blood dipped axe.

Feeling the crunch of sticks beneath my feet, the trees are a blur of green leaves as I run past them in my weak form.
Dark clouds looming over the forest makes it hard for me to tell if it's night or day but I keep persevering, the gentle sound of water dripping from a stream enticing me forwards.
My mind keeps skipping to glimpses of memory's from camp jaha- the love and security of a strong group, tempts me to go the opposite direction, to them but I decide not to, I'm too much of a curse on them, too much of a danger-
that could get them killed.

Hearing the comforting drip of the stream get louder, I push my self that one last bit- the small, gentle waves coming into view as I round a tall tree.
Collapsing on the ground, I kneel against the rocks in the stream. Plunging my skinny hands into the freezing cold water, I feel it go through me like knives as I splash it against my face. Smiling faintly I plunge my hands yet again into the crystal coloured water, cupping them I bring my hands up to my mouth and let the refreshing water fall down my throat- soothing my dry lips and erasing the soreness in them that had been their for days.
Standing up I feel a power take over me like the water has given me a new life- making my heart beat a little faster, making my bones a little stronger.
As if sensing my new found happiness, the clouds pull apart and reveal the glowing, bright sun that shines down on me like a gift from the heavens.
It's yellow rays, look down on my face and gives me gentle kisses as it lights up my hair in a golden glow.

I have felt this good in ages, I haven't drank water like this in ages, I haven't been this happy since I ran up to Bellamy and hugged him after I escaped from the mountain.
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Darkening my world again, the dark clouds hide my beloved sun as I realise how much I miss Bellamy.
My shoulders slump and my eyes fill with salty tears as I see my memory's of Bellamy flash behind me eyes- the way his brown, curly hair sways in the wind or how he's always smiling, even if it's just a smirk.
I miss him more then anything and I hadn't even realised it before.
Shivering, I pull my ripped jacket across me tighter as a cold wind blows through me.
Thunder booming above my head,I feel lights taps of rain hit my face and roll down on to my weak body.
Not moving I let the rain fall down me even more, getting heavier and heavier as yet another clap of thunder rumbles above my head. I can't move- I'm too frozen from sadness and regret, my heart longs for Bellamy, not the comfort of warmth or food, just bell.

Jumping in surprise, a bright, flash of lighting pierces the ground a few metres from me, across the stream.
My eyes widening for a second as a glimpse of Bellamy appears and disappears again as quick as the the lighting.
Branches and leaves falling around me, dancing with the rain as I run across the stream, my feet becoming even more enveloped in water- but I don't care, Bellamy was just there.
Lighting flashing again- this time even closer to me, I don't flinch an inch as smoke bellows from its target, all I care about is Bellamy who appears again for longer and even closer.
Staining the sky once again, lighting hits the ground half an inch away from my feet, heat piercing my body as I lunge at Bellamy's appearing figure right in front of me and I'm smiling bigger then the moon.
But my smile falters as I don't connect with a body but a wisp of smoke that disappears with my touch- Bellamy's smile gone.
Hitting the ground, mud and sticks splash around me as the rain gets even heavier and my glimpse of Bellamy blows away.
Tears stream down my scarred face and I feel my whole body convulse and shake with loneliness.
Thunder booming even louder and lighting getting even brighter I scream out with pain, pain like a million bullets in my heart.

"BELLAMY" I scream out as tears fall in to my throat and choke me, the darkness getting even darker in my eyes I feel it consume me as I wrap my arms around me legs in a protective cuddle- only my own company to keep me safe and loved.
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AN:
- hey readers,
This is a even longer chapter for you!!! Hope you like it X