My Art Book!

A Gift For Mah Best Friend! ^ω^

Note: So, NO, there's not going to be swears in this chapter but...it will be sad... I talk a little bit about the time I was depressed and suicidal so yeah... Don't worry! I didn't cut myself! I just wanted to die and kill myself.

No one get sad or depressed! ;0; I dun wanna see people go through what I did! If you need someone to talk to, talk to meh!!!

And to Minty, I haven't talked to you much about my depression. ^^" I just don't know how to bring the subject up! It feels weird to talk about depression when we're talking about Hope smacking you know what (Pfft! XD), Chibi and Pinkie being all adorable, and just about anything else we talk about! >^< Like, I wanna talk to you about it but I dunno how!

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This is a gift to mah bestest friend in the whole world Millie_Astral ^0^ And I mean YOU, MINTY! >0< Nat yah sistah who I assume is le older one, yes? . 3. Hi, Minty's sister! ^0^ Even though I don't know you, I loves you! ^3^

Sierra: That's creepy . 3.

Shush your face! >0<

Sierra: Deedee wants to be Minty's sister . 3. She be jealous of you, Millie!

ANYWAYS! This picture was inspired from a song called Fine on The Outside from the movie, Marnie and Me! :3 It made me cry because Anna is so me in the movie! TT-TT

The song is in this chapter! It's actually a cover but I honestly like this version more than the original! It was made by Lizz on YouTube so go check her out! :D

It's an amazing beautiful song and I love it so much! This song describes me so much since I couldn't really have any friends growing up because of my super strict religion and because my parents basically sheltered me from the entire world. (It sucks but they do it cuz they love me. Parenting! Fuck Yeah!)

So as I was listening to that song, I thought about Minty and how so much my point of view has actually changed because of her.

A long time ago, deep down I was really bitter and filled with anger and hate for literally EVERYTHING!

Because of my hate, I was a really lonely person and I had no one to talk to about anything... I didn't even have anyone I could turn to when I needed help with the simplest of things!

And then guess what? Depression! *sarcastic* Yay~!

It wasn't a happy time for me. Life was depressing, "friends" (Haha, you mean slut cunt bags who take advantage of you and toss you aside like you're shit!!) back then were nothing but fucking backstabbers, my family and my religion was really demanding and didn't accept me because I had a bad attitude and I overall wasn't a very happy person.

I even went suicidal for a while. Some nights, I'd go to the kitchen, grab a knife, and hold it to my wrist where the blood vessel was and/or my neck. I even tried hopping off one of the mountains when I went on a hike for Robotics.

I never actually did commit suicide because I was too afraid to do it... Pain, you know? It hurts.

I know, cowardly, right? I'm a shameful, disgusting hypocrite!

I think I'm stupid for not actually committing suicide. It feels wrong... You know...? It feels weird to talk about it even though I never actually once did it... I just feel like I don't have the right to talk about it... Like I'm a hypocrite...

But yeah! Moving on! That all changed when I got this app and met Minty-chan! :3 Getting this app in general helped me with the whole depression thing but Minty was the one who REALLY helped me!

As soon as I met her, a lot of things changed! Everything that I viewed as ugly and stupid became wonderful and amazing! I started to smile more, look more on the positive side, and stop this whole depression thing! (Well, most of it!) Even my writing improved! XD Minty be a good teacher!!!

She is mah best friend, as I have expressed so many times, and I love her so much! ^ω^

She is so very wonderful and so amazing! She's one of the friendliest people I know so go talk to her! :3 But don't overwhelm her with messages! V^V Only I can do that!

I DEMAND you guys to check out her profile and read her books!
(/^0^)/ They're all amazing!!! Read some of her sister's books too! It's on the same profile! They're the ones that aren't about Yu-Gi-Oh! XD I like your books, Millie! :3 I just haven't the time to read them though! >^< I barely have time to read Minty's books! Growing up is so busy O^O

And one more thing before I go, don't mess with her in any way! I am a protective person in general so if you mess with her or her sister who's sharing the profile, you mess with me! And digital or not you do not want my wrath!