Still Trying [phan/boyxboy]

IX

I am sorry if this chapter is too short, but trust me, I have this whole story line, but I just don't know how to get there. I think I have an idea now, just wait.

This chapter is dedicated to @Nonoisnotonfire for being a supportive reader. Show her some love guys, she's AMAAAZING (pewds voice)

Speaking of Pewds, HAVE YOU GUYS WATCHED THEIR NEW COLLAB VIDEO? EHHHMIGERD. PHAN AND MELIX GUYS. MUST WATCH. (FYI, Phan's vid is on their gaming channel!)

Oh, download I Won't Give Up- Jason Mraz please! Play it when you need it! Bai!

If only I could always hold on to my fantasies, no matter how fake the happiness is.

[Third Person POV]

The days just pass, not stopping, just continuing to fly away. Every single breakdown, was to be forgotten..

"Dan, hey, stick with me, okay?" Phil spoke to the now crumpling boy on the floor, rolling himself in a ball.

"Ph- Ph- Phil.. Let me g- go..."

"Dan.. I won't let you go until you stop shivering, okay? Calm down, please.." Phil's soft voice sends a wave a calmness over Dan, as he tries to slow his breathing.

Phil circles his arms over Dan's shoulder, pulling Dan closer. He could feel Dan tense up a bit, but Phil kept on holding him, waiting for him to calm down.

"The world is starting to get to me Phil.. I don't know if I can hold it.." Dan's voice was muffled by his tears, his head resting on Phil's shoulder, as Phil starts to draw small circles on his back.

"I know, Dan.. But it will be alright.. Eventually, it will be okay. Trust me.." Phil whispers into Dan's ear.

"How long is eventually?" Dan whispers back in between his sobs.

"It all depends on you, Dan."

.. the nights where Phil would protect Dan from the nightmares..

Phil woke up by the sound of screaming, tearing the night. The voice was painful, it was the voice that would snap him back from reality, the voice that would make him stop everything that he does to be there.

Dan's voice.

Phil immediately ran out of his room, going to the living room, where Dan has already fallen off the sofa, as he hopelessly tries to free himself from the restraints of the duvet.

Phil pulled the duvet away, revealing Dan, sweating, tears tracing their way down his cheek. He was crying in his sleep.

"Dan.. Dan.. Wake up, come on. It's not real, come on. Snap out of it," Phil whispers in Dan's ears. Dan still won't wake up.

Phil puts his hands on Dan's shoulder, trying to wake him up. Dan shakes vigorously, falling back to the floor.

"No.. No.. I promise, just don't hurt me. Please, I'll be good.." Phil went silent, he sits quietly next to Dan, listening to his words.

"You know what? It's okay, just hurt me.. But let Phil go. Please.. He doesn't deserve this.." Dan continues to scream, as his sobs got louder. Phil couldn't take it anymore.

"Dan. Wake up. Please. It's Phil." He whispers once again, his fingers squeezing Dan's sweaty ones. Dan's eyes suddenly shot open, fear shown in his eyes. Dan looked around, before finally focusing on Phil.