The Next Step: 6 Years On

Early Morning and Self Doubts

**Trumpet plays**
"Get up!! Get up, get up!! Come on guys. This is camp next step. It's up with the early bird here. Up up up!!" I can hear a voice call or more like scream into a mega phone. I know it's my husbands voice- only he would do this at 5 am.
"Trevorrrrrr" I groan sitting up to find that no body is next to me usually SLEEPING IN LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE.
"Come on babe? We're going on a morning run" he says smirking at me and smiling at the same time. Typical
"What? No!! It's 5am babe. I'm staying right here. I'm a normal person not someone who belongs to the U.S. Army Force. Seriously how did the trumpet get there?" I ask him and I rub my eyes as he chuckles
"Don't even worry about it" he says smirking at me again before going back to his trumpet. He blows it again and walks out of the tent
"Come on Lupiens- clothes on. Running time" he yells
"Um what about a word called No?" Isaac says and I can hear him from our tent and I laugh
"Not funny Britt. Come on let's go guys. It's a beautiful morning. Great for running" he says to Victoria and Isaac
"Bro. No" Isaac says and I laugh again
Trevor sighs loudly before moving on to the next tents and even I can hear it the trumpet it so loud!
"Come on Lamar- you an come with me!" He says happily. I laugh at his enthusiasm still in bed
"What they aren't going?"
"No. They said 5am is too early. Can you believe that?"
"Yeah says the person who sleeps in every morning until 10" I yell to him laughing and he chuckles
"Bro- you coming or not?" He asks him and Jennie laughs
"I'm out" Jennie says
"I'm in. Come on Trevor" he says excitedly
"Uh man you're still in your pjs!" Trevor reminds him and I hear Jennie giggling. The kids are still asleep through all this and I don't blame them. 5am is early.
"Oh right right" he says and I hear silence probably him putting a shirt on and then trev says
"Right then. See you sleepy head soon" he says to everyone and I smile before he passes out tent and comes in to give me a kiss
"I'll be back soon" he says giving me a peck and a hug in bed. I giggle giving him a kiss too before trying to fall back to sleep again.

Just as I'm about to go back to sleep and I've finally got into the sleeping mode again, I hear footsteps and I feel these little kisses on my eyelids. I jump- quite startled but giggle once I realize it's Riley.
"Mummy" she whispers and I motion for her to come into bed with me.
"Yes sweetie"'I say sighing. I'm never going to get any sleep now
She starts crying and I immediately regret what I just said. She is adorable at this of Morning and when one of my kids cry it's so heartbreaking.
"Where's daddy?" She sobs
"Awww sweetie. It's ok. He just went on a jog with uncle Lamar that's all. Don't worry he's not gone forever" I tell her. I can't believe she slept through that whole army scene.......and the trumpet for god sakes she sleeps like a lion!
"Oh" she whispers clutching onto me more and before I know it I'm fast asleep.

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Jennie POV
It's now 7am and I get up after falling back to sleep after the U.S. Army came to my camp site. I see Trevor and Lamar at the kitchen table that we created ourselves- cup of coffee in their hands and sweat all down their shirts. Lamar looked super hot. Trevor well.....he did but that's for Britt to say. Otherwise I'll get in trouble.

I pour myself some coffee and sit down with the boys
"How was the walk?"
"Good. Waters beautiful!" Trev says and I smile
"I know!! I should go down actually. I've been meaning too"
"I'll come babe- spend some time together for a bit" Lamar says and I smile as he puts his hand on my thigh
"Right are we making brekkie this morning for the others before they all wake up" I ask them and Trevor nods
"Probably should. How is the pregnancy Jen?" He asks
"It's good. Only one week so it's not too bad. Morning sickness should come soon. I reckon that will be more worse than the actual birth" I say to him and he chuckles
"Nope. Jennie nothing is more worse than the birth. I remember Brittany" he says
"She didn't like it?"
"Not one bit" he says standing up
"Right- bacon and eggs?" He asks quickly after it and I sigh. I can't believe I thought the birth was going to be easy. I'm actually really scared now. What happens if I lose the baby? What happens if I lose myself? What happens if the birth isn't as I expected it and it was a tonne worse. Should I even be having this baby? I can't do it. Wow if Trevor hadn't told me that- my birth for this baby would be really different- really unexpected.

What am I going to do? Abortion?