Love You More Than I Can Ever Scream- Sequel to Janxx Mpreg

Chapter 34

CC POV - 

I was now sat outside the hospital room, holding my newborn son and I was in tears. Not from joy though. My boyfriend was dead. I can't fucking believe it. It hurts so much. I can't be without him. He means everything to me. 

I heard a small whimper from my son, who was now holding out his tiny arms to me as he opened his large chocolate brown eyes. He was perfect. There's no way he's mine. He's just amazing and I'm completely in love with him. 

I just wish Jake was here. Oh fuck...

I broke down in tears again. 

Suddenly there was a loud bang from the doors down the hallway and I saw Jake's father walking over to me with panic in his eyes. The hospital must have called him.

He had Legacy in his arms and she was screaming bloody murder. She'll never see her daddy again and she's not even old enough to understand.

I stood up with my head still hanging low. I was really scared right now. I feel like the world has been pulled from under my feet.

Jake was my world.

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After about 5 minutes of me and Mr Pitts just trying to gather ourselves and calm Legacy down, we heard someone walking towards us. I looked up to see Ashley, now kneeling beside me. He placed his hand upon my shoulder and we both remained silent. 

Fuck this hurts and what's worse is I haven't heard anything from the doctors yet. But I didn't want to hear it. I'd just end up doing something I'd regret.

I rocked my son back and forth quietly until Ashley spoke up, "What are you going to name him?" 

I appreciate he was trying to lighten the mood but my head was just all over the place. 

"I-I have no idea..." I mumbled before letting out a long sigh. 

I know Jake would want me to name him but it doesn't feel right. I want him here right now. I want to hold him and tell him how much I love him. I can't get over the fact that I will never see him again. That smile. Those tattoos. Even the way he kisses the dogs then tries to kiss me. 

I felt myself tearing up again. 

Then I heard the door open to the room where Jake was. A doctor stepped out and walked over to us.

This is it. He's going to say it. 'I'm sorry for your loss'. I can't do this. 

I start hyperventilating and Ashley takes hold of my hand while Jake's dad puts a hand on my back in efforts to calm me down. It wasn't working. 

Before I knew it, the doctor was in front of us. I peered up and held my breath, preparing myself for the worst.

"Jake has pulled though. We're going to allow one person in at a time, so it's not over stimulating for him." 

Wait. Did he just say he pulled through it? He's alive?! 

Ashley took my son from me without me asking and I practically ran into the room to find Jake sat in the hospital bed with colour returning to his face.

He turned to me and his eyes lit up as he held his arms open for me. I moved over to him and pulled him into my chest. I never wanted to let go.

I ran my hands through his hair and buried my face into his neck. This can't be real. 

He pulled back for a moment and we shared a soft kiss that only lasted a moment but it was enough to let me know this isn't a dream.

"J-Jake.. I thought I'd lost you forever..." I looked into his eyes and began to tear it. 

"I couldn't leave you all behind" he whispered before we kissed again. 

I'm never letting him go. 

He's my miracle.

|| Sorry I haven't updated in over 2 weeks. Damn writers block!

This story is nearly over:(

Maybe I'll write another Black Veil Brides story soon! Any suggestions?!?! ♡

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