Love You More Than I Can Ever Scream- Sequel to Janxx Mpreg

Chapter 21

Jake POV - 

I looked up into CC's eyes before giving him a quick kiss on the cheek, "I'll need to think about it.. okay?" I whispered then picked up the umbrella that I had dropped earlier and held it over us. 

He nodded then removed his waterproof jacket and put it over my shoulders, "I understand, I promise though to show you just how much you mean to me" he whispered before picking me up and carrying me back to the tour bus.

Once we was back on the bus and out of the rain, I removed my boots and ran a hand through my wet hair. I then noticed Andy and Ashley stood by the kitchen door, looking at us both. 

"We were worried sick! Where have you been?!" Andy said, running over and hugging me tightly. 

"I-I just went for a walk to clear my head.." I mumbled as I removed CC's jacket from my body. 

"CC told us what happened.. Are you alright?" Andy was speaking as if CC wasn't standing right next to us. 

"Everything will be fine. I just really need a hot shower and some sleep." I told him and he gave me a nod in reply.

I walked off to the small bathroom on the bus and closed the door behind me. At least now I can do some thinking of my own.

CC POV-

I watched Jake disappear into the bathroom and was instantly pushed backwards by a very angry Andy Biersack. 

"What the hell were you thinking?!" He yelled as Ashley pulled the younger man away. 

"It was a mistake.. I feel bad enough as it is.. and I'm not forcing Jake to stay with me. If he wants to leave me then it's his choice... I can understand if he doesn't want me anywhere near him or the baby after all of this" I dropped my head to the floor and left the kitchen to go back to the bunk room. 

I grabbed a towel from one of the draws in the closet and walked to the back part of the bunk room. I removed my clothes and changed into some loose black sweatpants before drying off my hair with the towel. 

I got into my bunk a few minutes later and wrapped my lower body in the blankets. I felt like shit. Why would Jake even consider the idea of getting back with me? I don't fucking deserve someone as perfect as him.

Even my unborn child deserves better. 

I felt like crying. I just wanted to break down. 

I pulled the curtain shut on my bunk and turned onto my side, holding a pillow close to my chest. 

I really hope he'll be okay. 

I only closed my eyes and slowly fell asleep. 

However about 2 hours later, I was woken up by something tapping my shoulder. 

I groaned and eventually turned over to see Jake standing in front of my bunk in a Metalica shirt and black boxer shorts. 

"What's wrong?" I asked, my voice still a bit groggy.

"Thunder and lightning storm" he replied quietly while looking at the floor.

"And?" I asked kinda confused. 

"Can I sleep next to you? Just until the storm stops" he asked while biting his lip nervously. 

"Sure" I said quickly then moved over so he could get into the bunk with me. It was only small, so there wasn't a hell of a lot of room. 

He moved over to me and lay on his back with his hands resting on his stomach. 

I didn't know whether to cuddle him or kiss him.. whatever. It's an awkward situation.  Especially since we were already so close together thanks to the tight space of a bunk.

"CC!" Jake said suddenly which made my whole body jump.

"What? What is it?" I asked quickly. 

He grabbed my hand and placed it on his stomach. After a few quiet moments, I could feel gentle kicking against the palms of my hands. 

"T-Thats amazing" I whispered then glanced at Jake who was smiling softly back at me. 

I moved over to him then gently kissed his cheek, "Jake, I really do love you.." I whispered and he nodded before pulling me closer into a short kiss.

"I think we should focus on the baby for now. There's plenty of time for relationship talk" he replied back. 

I felt my heart sink. 

Would things ever be the same again?

I've really fucked everything up.

|| Sorry if this chapter sucks! Damn writers block! 

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