🎶 After some time, I've finally made up my mind
She is the girl and I really want to make her mine...
I'm searching everywhere to find her again,
To tell her I love her and I'm sorry 'bout the things I've done 🎶
"You have one last guesting at Chris's show tonight, then we're done. You'd be on vacation." His road manager states while scanning papers at katabi si Vice na inaayusan sa vanity mirror. Phuh! Ambakla pa din talaga. Nandyan pa din yung dami ng mga nag-aayos sa kanya and I actually don't get the sense of that, pag tiningnan mo naman kasi siya, mukha pa ring adik na di naliligo. Mas okay pa nga siya noon, actually.
🎶 I find her standing in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her wedding dress
But she's crying while she's saying this 🎶
Bakit nire-rehearse niya ulit yung kanta na yun? Sa first self-titled album niya pa yun ah. Yun ang kakantahin niya sa next guesting niya? Inayos ko ang shades ko pati na ang classy black kong blade top, silver pants and black pumps. I raised my oversized vintage tortoise frames at naglakad ng diretso sa hallway. May iba akong aayusin. Napadaan lang talaga ako sa dressing room niya. Di ko inexpect na nandun pala siya 'no! Coincidence lang talaga.
🎶 Boy, I've missed your kisses all the time
But this is twenty-five minutes too late
Though you traveled so far
Boy, I'm sorry you are twenty-five minutes too late 🎶
Nung una ko marinig na ni-revive niya yung kanta niyang yun, well... syempre siguro kasi fresh pa... Iniisip ko, kanta niya yun for me. But then... As I think about it, andun siya sa kasal ko nun eh. Andun siya at kita ko pang isa din siya sa mga nagtataas ng cellphone niya para magvideo at magpicture. Ipinagtataka ko lang na sa tagal niya akong tinutukan ng camera, bakit ang ikli lang ng inupload niya sa IG niya.
🎶 Against the wind I'm going home again
Wishing me back to the time
When we were more than friends 🎶
Nakakarindi lang isipin na... wala ba talaga? Kahit konti, wala siyang naramdaman? Alam ko, kahit di niya diretsong sabihin. Alam kong yung 'secret affair' na napag-usapan namin noon, hindi lang joke lahat yun. May iba dun, totoo. Pero yun na nga eh. Yung alam ko, hanggang alam ko lang pala. Ako lang ang nakakaalam kasi para sa kanya, wala naman.
🎶 But still I see her in front of the church
The only place in town where I didn't search
She looked so happy in her wedding dress
But she cried while she was saying this 🎶
So on my wedding day and from then on, I made myself contented and happy. Sabi nila, sampal sa mga nanloko't nang-iwan sa'yo ang makita ka nilang masaya. Pero alam mo yung mas masakit? Yung nagpapanggap ka lang na masaya para saktan siya pero kahit anong hirap mo maging masaya, hindi siya naapektuhan kasi mas masaya siya.
Boy, I've missed your kisses all the time
But this is twenty-five minutes too late
Though you traveled so far
Boy, I'm sorry you are twenty-five minutes too late
That's when I thought... He's such a gay. And always will be a gay. Lalaki ba yung papapaniwalain kang gusto ka niya tas di ka kayang ipaglaban? Lalaki ba yung gagawa-gawa ng desisyon tapos hindi naman pala kayang panindigan? Nakakabw*sit lang kasi. Oo. Kahit kailan, di niya seryosong sinabi. Pero ramdam ko eh. Andun na ko na wala siyang sinabi, pero paasa pa din, bakit siya masyadong pa-fall?
