Stydia

Avoided

P.o.v. Lydia
"What do you mean with that people want us more ?" I ask her
"Well cause you're really special, people would probably want you and the person you're bounded with in their pack..." "Why would they want the person who is bounded to me also in their pack ?" I started to panick, why do people that live around me always get hurt? Ooooo i hate it, allison probably died because i was her friend, etc.
"Becaussse" she says saying the sss really long... "You and that person are way stronger when you're together. You don't have that much nightmares, he, i can say it's a he right lydia ?..."
"Yeah you can"
"well so he can get really strong when you two are fighting and when you would get hurt he also gets really strong.... Uhmmm many many years ago when the bound or tether was from love the children they had, but watch out that's really just a mythe, they were really powerfull.... In the book where i found the mythe there doesn't stand any explenation of what the children could do special.... So i really don't know if it's true. The persons who share the tether also can feel each others feelings sometimes, they share dreams and visions. When someone tries to do something wrong to you and he holds your hand you both can give electric shocks... One more thing, the tether isn't always from love. It can also come from deep friendship. But if you still have a feeling you get pulled to that person and you get sick or weak when you aren't constantly with him then it's probably a tether from love. But not always. When it's not a tather of love you don't have the constant urge to be with that person. But you have to see the person for at least once in three weeks, otherwise you get a little weak. When it is a tather of love you get really weak when you don't see him. It's difficult to know..."
I didn't notice Julian standing up, cause i was thinking so hard, i only noticed when she said 'goodbye and i'll see you next week to train' and then she haeded out of the door.
The next morning i woke up and made myself ready for school. While eating my breakfast i texted stiles about what the tether exactly did and what Julian told me about it. He had a right to know cause he was bounded to me.
I think i'm more jealous of malia now, 'it's probably because of the tether' i think 'it's probably because i haven't seen Stiles for 2 weeks and a half now. I shouldn't be jealous of malia.... If i'm even jealous, cause it's probably just because of the tether like i already said, pff i mean yeah malia sometimes is really crazy, thinks only about herself, isn't really friendly... But she sure as hell doesn't deserve her boyfriend being stolen by an other girl. Plus stiles has probably stopped loving me by now... I was so mean to him !!!! But every time he was so friendly i just thought that i didn't deserve him, i mean that's what my dad said to me when i was in 5th grade. I was talking alot about stiles those days, because he was my best friend... He understood me and was smart. My dad then said to me that i wasn't good enough for him, i wasn't perfect... Mostly i wasn't perfect enough for my dad because i have 'red' hair that's what my dad calls the my hair color, Stiles always said that that wasn't true, he always says that i have strawberry blonde hair. My dad says that i'm small and that im not tall like a model, they always told me that i wasn't beautiful because i was small and they thought i was fat... Because of that i started training really really hard and sometimes i wouldn't eat to get thinner... He never is there for me and my mom never protects when he yells at me or hits me.  When i had really weird nightmares nobody would be there to stroke my hair or to comfort me. Now i know that i had these dreams because i'm a banshee, but i didn't know that than. My parents knew it but they never told me. My dad probebly prohibited my mom to tell me. He only calls me a freak and my mom never says something. I don't blame her, i think she's just scared. But it still hurts seeing her watch and doing nothing. I also don't have blue eyes but brown ones, he really doesn't like me. He is always screaming at me how bad i am, how ugly and wrong. He says ther they both hate me, almost every day i'm feeling so bad and ugly that sometimes i try to take the mental pain away by giving myself fysical pain. Basicly i was cutting myself sometimes... I...i.. I don't know ...i just.. I know deep down in myself that it's wrong and again i'm probably being weak but the words they say to me and the being hard on myself sometimes gets just so painfull. It's just i never really had someone. I just had Stiles you know and now he has Malia so i'm alone again. I understand Stiles completely, i mean i've ignored him for years. But yeah i just don't deserve him. I've just ignored him because my dad said that i didn't deserve him, that he was to good for me. So i completly tried to change so that Stiles wouldn't like me anymore. But he saw right through it.

Later that day i saw malia talking to Stiles. "You completly smell like her again, i told you to leave her, and don't talk to her."
"But i haven't even seen her in weeks now."
"You're a liar you smell her at you. She is a real bitch and a whore" "I swear it Malia everything is ok. I don't see her anymore, i'm with you" Stiles said and then they kissed. I started running to the woods, further and further and started crying. When i finnaly was really deep in the woods i sunk down a tree. And started crying really hard, he's ignoring me now for weeks and i'm feeling so much more lonely then normally. I just miss him so much, he isn't there anymore.... I need him more then ever now and he isn't here. I lost allison, my parents hate me, i lost stiles, i don't really trust theo, the pack is falling apart and i hate myself... A few minutes later i suddenly hear a noise. I look around but don't see anything...it started getting darker and darker and i tried to get back to the parking of the school but i couldn't find it i hear someone or maybe even something walking behind me. I quickly turn around and then i see it the big yellow sort of snake eyes. I scream !!!!!

Hey guys it's me, ummm i wanted to say thank you for reading and i really hope you like the book and if you could write a comment about what you think about the story i would really like that. Sorry again for the grammer mistakes.