I woke up at 3am Kai was at Andys cause they wanted to "Bond" before the wedding he had been since 1 o' clock & we had to pick the kids up around noon i checked my twitter & facebook page & everyone was STILL buzzing about me being a mother, tons of strangers asking what its like & how im doing & tons saying shit like 'i bet that sluts pregnant again' & shit like that
of course when we had the kids it was EVERYWHERE! i mean we got reveiwed there were tons of paparazzis we were in tons of magazines all cause i was Andy Biersacks little sister knocked up at 14.
I checked my email & saw one new measage
'Hey Kali when can i see my neice & nephews? i saw you in a magazine & tracked down your email heres my phone number:
,i hope its you i figured you got adopted by a freak, Kayley.'
she gave me her phone number & i burst into tears reading it
i ran outside & screamed
"SHE. SHE LEFT ME WITH HIM! SHE THINKS ITS OKAY! SHE LEFT ME, IT'S ALL HER FAULT I WENT THROUGH THAT SHIT!!,
SHE LEFT ME WHEN I WAS 2!!!!!" i screamed outside
i gripped my glass of water so tight it broke causing the glass to stick in my hand "AAH!" i screamed not out of pain, but anger, i threw the handful of glass & punched the wall "WHAT THE HELL!!" i screamed, pissed off i went inside & put my wedding ring away so i wouldnt get mugged, i went for a walk.
tear's welling in my eyes & glass still in my hand, i was clenching my fists, "You need to get that glass out" i heard a voice say behind me as he grabbed my hand, i made a fist with the other & turned around about to punch who ever it was in the face, it was Jake
well second Jake, the one who saved me from being raped
"Kali its been forever, whats wrong?"
i collapsed into his arms crying like crazy as he stroked my hair
i told him what happened while we walked to his place,
"Kali, do not call her. She does not deserve to see the kids period. Delete the email, besides it could be a crazed fan, you are all over the internet" he said while bandaging my hand
i nodded & he kissed my head.
i told him thanks & i was going home, once i got back it was 4:30am. I put my wedding ring on & got out my guitar, i played perfect weapon & sang along i stopped in the middle still pissed of about my sister, i knew it was her & i couldnt get over it. i got up & punched the door, so i wouldnt put a hole in the wall.
knives & pens went off, it was Andy
"W-WHat?" i said imedeintly trying to settle down so Kai wouldnt come over early "Hey Kai & i just wanted to check on you, are you okay?"
"Yeah im fine, what'cha guys doin?"
"Watching batman"
At that i giggled we were all three like obsessed with batman
"Alright, im just cleaning the house" i said picking up the few things i knocked over.
"Alright well i have to go, love ya little sis"
"Love you too" i said hanging up.
By six i was crying on the couch, Kai wasnt gonna be here til noon he was gonna pick up the kids on his way here, by the way noon to us is 1:00
i was so sad the email made me remember my childhood & that my sister left.
*12 AM*
i went downstairs without waking Kai after i checked on the kids & i sat there & cried, i was traumatized all over again
i heard little foot steps down the stairs, & saw Abel my oldest child "Mom whats wrong?"
"Nothing sweetie"
"Are you & dad fighting?"
"No no no. Abel sweetie tell me, if i had a sister who left me as a baby & made me go through alot of stuff i shouldnt have would you want to meet her, it didnt really happen its just a what if qeustion"
i wanted to know, cause if he wanted to meet her i would ask the other kids, but i told him it was fake cause he's little & shouldnt think of these things as true & i didnt want him to stress, but i also dont want to lie & make her out to be amazing cause if he wanted to meet her i didnt want to make her out to be who she wasnt.
"No,.. i wouldnt want to meet her mom, anyone who left you & didnt come back has no place ion this family"
he said he was a VERY inteligent one for a 5 year old "Okay, thank you soo much sweetie!" i said picking him up & kissing his forehead "Come on you should get some sleep." "Okay mommy"
he said
i took him upstairs & tucked him in i kissed him on the head & told him goodnight, & then i went to my bed & fell into a dreamless sleep.
