Remember, I wasn't born to be loved

Chapter 7: My Son

Life changes without you even noticing it. It changes for the better or for the worse.

I woke up early the next morning to make breakfast. I usually make my breakfast for myself only but from this day onward it's really gonna change.

Pagtaas ko agad akong nag-ayos ng sarili ko. I looked myself at the mirror and thought of things that might happen all through this day. I thought of things that might happen today. Will I be alright thinking that there might be someone waiting for me. I closed my eyes and breathed deeply.

In front of me is the door of a person that really changed everything about my life.

I just looked at it for a second, thinking what will happen if I opened this door. I breathed deeply before opening the door. It has everything a typical child's room has. It has this big teddy bear bed. The type na nasa sahig lang siya. Beside it is a table that has all his books, that I don't even know if he use. On the side is he's closet and bathroom.

I looked up at the ceiling and saw blue clouds and on the walls were big trees that extend in the ceiling.

I remembered when I was a kid my Dad and I used to paint on walls and Mom would shout at us. I didn't realize I was already smiling so I immediately went over Zion's bed to wake him up. Remember Shan that was all in the past.

"Zion, wake up." sabi ko habang inaalog-alog siya.

"Mmmmhhhhmmmmm." he grunted and rolled over his bed. 'Am I going to be doing this everyday?' I asked at the back of my mind.

Everyday kailangang magkakasabay kaming aalis dahil hanggang di pa nakakalipat dito si Nanang he'll be staying at our parent's house or maybe sa grandparents na lang.

Since parang wala talaga siyang planong gumising, kinarga ko na lang siya at lumabas na kami ng kwarto niya.

Sakto naman ng paglabas namin ay ang paglabas naman ng kagigising lang na Zero. He's still in his pjs and mayroon pa siyang laway sa labi niya. Linagpasan lang namin siya ang dumiretso na sa kusina.

Iniupo ko lang si Maur sa high stool since hindi pa siya makakaupo sa regular chairs. Inayos ko na ang kakainan niya. There was already a bowl prepared for him. Seems like they knew from the start that we would eventually meet him.

I put some baby food in it. I sat down in front of him para subuan siya. This gave me the opportunity to look at him more clearly. He had hazel-nut eyes that are from mine. Most of its features are from Zero.

Mata lang ata ang galing saakin and his black curly hair. I heard footsteps coming from the living room and I immediately gave Maur his spoon.

"Kina-career mo na ata ang pagiging Nanay ah?" said Zero who was leaning at the kitchen island.

I looked at him while leaning also on the sink and having my cup of hot coco in my hands. I know he just wants to irritate me.

"I never planned on being a mother." I said a matter of factly.

"But since I have enough reasons to believe that he is MY son, then I don't have the right to say that he isn't."

Nandoon lang siya tinitingnan kung totoo ba ang sinasabi ko. Well, it is true. Kahit sa kaloob-looban ko

gusto kong ipaniwala sa sarili ko na hindi ko siya anak at hinding-hindi ako magkakaroon ng anak, wala

akong magagawa dahil nandyan na siya. Hindi siya isang bagay na pag hindi mo nagustuhan pwede mong papalitan.

Kumuha na ako ng dalawang plato since naihanda naman na ng maid ang pagkain. I sat down on the right side of Maur and started eating.

"Aren't going to eat?" I asked him.

He was quite for about a minute when he finally sat down to eat. All through breakfast it was quite.

Nobody even dared to talk except for Maur who was messing his food on his face. He keeps calling me mommy. After kong kumain pinaliguan ko na si Maur and dressed him. We waited in Zero's car.

While waiting I played a bit with Maur. Actually, I hate and like kids at the same time.

I hate them kapag umiiyak sila, they look ugly when they cry. I like them because they're cute and adorable. Hey, I may be this b*tch but I still have a heart, you know.

I haven't been with many kids, since...that day.

Dumungaw ako sa bintana and saw Zero opening the car door. He wasn't aware that we are in the car kaya nung bumukas siya ng pinto, kulang na lang magkaroon siya ng heart attack.

"WHAT THE F*CK ARE YOU DOING HERE?!" Zero shouted at me.

"Watch your language." matigas kong sabi sakanya.

"Wha-what the? Are you saying that I can't cuss because of this kid?"

"Mommy what's f*ck?" Zion asked all of a sudden. I looked at Zero who is obviously shocked sa sinabi ni Zion.

"Now what were you saying? Watch your mouth especially when Zion is around, you might be a bad influence to him."

Inayos ko na ang seatbelt ko. Zero was looking at me as if I was talking all gibberish. Believe it or not, I once planned of what I will do if a child is taken in my custody. Pero lahat yun nawala sa isang iglap.

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Hello everyone! I finally updated. Sorry for the suuuppperrr late update. I was all busy with school work and reading books.

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