They don't know about us

.Chapter.13

woke up on the hospital bed, that was the last day,i was ready to leave, all the tests, treatments, check up had done, doctors declared that operation would't fix the broken system of nerves in my spinal card, but that did't mean there was't any hope, they told mom that medicines and propper care can help. they also told some precautions and instructions about me, and they would be coming every week to check me. now i was ready to go, mom took my stuff and the bags, then she held my wheel chair and started pushing that to take me out of the hospital, I was going back to home. but i was't happy. maybe it was because I could never see him again... as she pushed the wheel chair in hospital My eyes searched that nice guy with his green eyes and dark soft curls, I looked for him everywhere in every corner,.. Thinking of nice guy suddenly I rememberd he gave me a letter last night,

"Mom stop please" I said in a hurry, 

"what happend baby?" she stopped at once and asked,

"I think i forgot something in my room, can you wait here and I'll just go and get that," i asked her, she took a minute to think and then she smiled, and said:

"Ok baby, come back soon, I'll put the bags in the car"

Hearing that i rolled the wheels with my hands and moved my chair back to the room, i was thinking how could i forget about that letter, there was impatience and lust kind of a hard wish to see him talk to him, that letter was so important for me. i wanted to know what he said in the letter.

when i reached the room i quickly went to bed and picked pillow up, a folded paper was there, i took that in my hand and closed my eyes giving a sigh, felt satisfection.I could only see his face in my closed eyes, his eyes, how those green balls stares at me, how he was very worried about me all the time, he stood in the window to see me, and how he came to my room last night, i thought about how he kissed on my neck and his soft lips touched my skin like a rose patel, he kissed my hand, how he was close to me, why i felt so melted in his closeness, did he feel the same? I suddenly opened my eyes and thought "what am i thinking?" ''why would he ever feel the same? Im a disabled girl that cant even walk a step by her own, no one would ever love me'', thinking that my eyes filled with tears,  

I put that letter in the pocket of my pant and moved my wheelchair....

Mom was waiting outside in the car, she came out of the car when she saw me coming and helped me sitting in the car, then she folded the wheel chair and put it on back seat, she got in the car and started driving, I was just looking by the car window and watching how the world looked like outside the hospital, green fields, small houses in the farms, animals, kids playing... Everybody seemd happy, enjoying their life, but me hahhh.. just living a miderable life, then I looked down on my legs, thin and weak legs, i could not even feel i had them down there, i was in tears thinking if i could ever feel the walking and running on the ground, Wiped my tears quickly so mom could't see me crying,

Then car entered a street, i looked around in confused manner it was like i had been there before, 

" what is this place mom?" i asked her,

"its the place where we live" she answerd without looking at me while driving, just gave a little smile,

"This street.." i said slowly,

"what? Do you remember this street?" she suddenly asked looking at me with her questioning eyes,

"no.. Its just... I dont know" I answerd with puzzled expression,

i looked by the car window and my eyes caught a house with big tree in the garden, there was a swing hanging on that tree. I kept looking at that house like something was attrecting me, when i reached closer to that house, in my head started a pain , I put hand on my head I was feeling like everything started to spin, but i kept looking at the house with my half open eyes, then suddenly pain got more intensed I closed my eyes, a blurry black and white flashback ran in my mind, I saw a boy weaing a hoodie standing close to that house and smiling, it was so blurry, nothing was clear enough to recognise who was that boy, i was still holding my head with hands and eyes closed, I was trying to see that flashback clearly but that did't happen it stayed in my mind like 10 seconds then it vanished, i tried again and again to recall something more, but once again my mind was blank, we left that house behind and soon car stopped.