They don't know about us

.Chapter.9

I was in the last year of my graduation,just 4 months to complete, 

When i heard about one Direction coming to our school, ,i did't believe it and thought it must be some rumor, but it was true, they came to our school for special lessons for 3 months, untill their new album came out, actually the management decided to have some special classes for boys , they chose harry's school for this, 

So Boys started having classes... Yeah they were new it was really wierd for them but with every passing day, they became more friendly they were like all other school mates now and everybody was used to it... they were enjoying an easy and a normal life again.  

Harry told them about me, 

"Lisby, she's my friend".... 

Yeah he called me just a friend, and i never axpected more than that., Danielle, Elounor and Perrie were also with them,  

I had two classes with harry, in the class i always felt so insecure harry sitting over there staring at me, i could never understand what he wanted from me, i mean he could not accept me and he also never wanted to see me with someone else,.... 

I guess he was ashamed to tell the the world about me...

all my classes were same with Niall, he was a great fellow, he used yo tell me jokes and different stories... And some really interesting moments from their tour and stuff, so we became friends, slowly i dont know how but he sensed everything about how i feel for harry, how my nerves got tight whenever i saw harry, i could not help it,

So Niall once asked me "Do you Love Harry?" 

I could not tell him lie, i dont know why, my tongue started telling everything that happend to me, my eyes burst in tears, He was constantly looking at me and observing how I was deeply in Love with harry, and then he hugged me and said " your not alone, We're best friends now, you can call me whenever you need me,"  

From that day he always took care about me, he always tried to cheer me up" he really cared about me, 

Harry watched us everytime together, and he got it all wrong, he thought we were dating ahhh... that was bulshit, Niall was my best friend and we both could not even think about that,but harry....

One day... 

When i was in locker room, alone, i just needed some of my books, and stuff, 

he came there, 

"What the hell are you doing? "he was in high temper with his red eyes staring at me, 

I could not reply just looked into those eyes and tried to find myself there, but i was not there anymore,  

Tears fell out of my eyes and i tried to to walk away from there untill he held my arm and pulled me close with all his force,saying, 

"Stop it, just Stop doing this" 

I looked in his eyes now his eyes were not reflecring the hate and anger it was something else in his eyes that i could not understand,  

his eyes were in my eyes and hearts were beating the same Loud... 

He said "cant you see that? I want some time with you, why do you always keep ignoring me" 

I tried to release myself from his tight grip, 

"see you want to stay away, you dont want me anymore" he spoke that with hate.

After that He held me for a long time standing there we both did not speak a word, then he came more closer now it was not even the difference of one inch between us, his body was trembling mine as well, his breath was faster same as mine. Yess he was my harry same harry,  

but being that close to me... There was differnce of thounsand miles between us, then he suddenly ungripped my arm and walked away... 

That was the day when i felt the warmth of my love again,  

Then they all planned a trip for Summer it was harry's idea, Niall told me about it, that harry wanted me to come with them, Harry also told Liam to take Me with them, they all asked me for that... after all i bad to agree... and i came here with them, and now in the party im sitting all alone, while everyone is dancing and having fun,  

I was waiting for harry, i was sure he would come to me and ask me for a dance, 

And then a guy came he was a handsome good looking boy, he asked me for a dance, but i refused.  

Cause i was only waiting for one person .... I kept sitting there waiting and waiting... I waited so long... 

all my hopes begain to vanish now, "He would never come, " Now i was preparing my mind for the fact that he'll not come to me, 

But then i saw harry on stage, my heart started jumping, he came .. He really came for me, 

He held the mic and and spoke "Hi everybody" 

But he did not seem to be happy at all, and said " i have to make an announcement, as you all know i planned this trip, i have to tell you about my new girlfriend, she's awesome, and i really want her to come up on the stage" 

I was sooo happy, my heart was happily beating faster and faster, finally he agreed and accepted our love, he was not ashamed to call me his girlfriend anymore my eyes filled with tears and i stood up smiling, and as i walked to the stage,...

Suddenly my feet stopped and my smile turned into sadness when another girl came up to the stage, a blond tall girl, yess she was a celebrity, she happily fell into harry's arms and harry looked at me with with his sad face and reflecting the signs of sorry...  

My feet could not move, my heart was stopped,i was broken into thousand pieces, and no one could heal me, never... 

Everybody in the hall clapped for them, and made a noise... 

Once again harry destroyed me, he pulled my soul out of my body and now i had no reason to live, i just could not even say a word, harry kept looking at me, he was still standing on the stage with his new girlfriend and his arms were in hers...  

So that was the surprise? This was the reasone he told Liam to get me for the trip? Why? He liked to break my heart everytime.. 

I stood there with an expression of not believing what happened,

All my senses came back when Niall shook me with then i realised i still was standing in the middle of the hall, I could not control my emotions and my tears I ran out of the hall, wearing that big white gown I ran to my room... I just wanted to go, Niall ran after me saying, wait, Lisby....  

Harry watched me from the stage,... 

That was enough, i could not take that anymore, i just wanted to leave that place, I went to my room and started throwing things,. Then i found a blade, this was all i wanted, I was holding that blade in my hand and thinking to Cut my wrist, but i could not do that the image of my Loving mom came into my mind," No, I cant do that, " I threw the blade, but my anger and my pain was killing me, I cried, So hard.... I sat on the ground and cried for a long time... Untill my pain got lower..

I just wanted to go back home, it was about 12 of the night... I changed the dress and wore shorts with top and combed my hair, washed my face, 

Packed everything,  

and called my mom.. 

She was unable, so i just sent her a voice message with my trembling voice full of pain, "hey mom, its me, Im Just.. Not feeling good, Im coming back, I just wanna hug you, I love you mom ... Bye " after that I cried again... I could not stop my tears..  

no one could feel my pain, they were all dancing with the loud music.

I washed my face once again, tried to calm down.. 

And started talking to the mirror, "yeah, so what? He was never mine, he never loved me, just forget it liz..." 

"why did i come here? This place would kill me, i better go, right now,"

I held my bag, and turned to the door but before i could leave the room someone enterd... 

It was Harry...