⚠️MATURE LANGUAGE⚠️
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Crystal's p.o.v-
I felt like I could cry but no tears were coming out. I was thoroughly confused.
And I had nowhere to go.
I was ashamed of what I had done. I was covered in blood... The thought of Andy seeing me this way made me sick.
Passing by a closed bar I read a clock on the outside of the building. It was 4:15am. I needed to get inside. I couldn't let anyone see me like this.
... Asher... ASHER! My baby! How could I forget. I suddenly felt even sicker.
What if I hurt him? Was that possible? What if I couldn't control it!?
He was with Andy's parents until a little later today. Maybe I could go home, shower, change and pack some things- and then from there I...I just didn't know.
I didn't trust myself after what I had just done. I had killed. I literally felt like I had no control. My blood lust took over. My emotions took over...
I felt like a.... like a- monster...
I had fought so hard to help Andy when he did what he did... and he was a vampire now and he wasn't even doing what I was. He wasn't hurting people anymore and now I was...
My amazing self control was practically non existent now.
At that very moment it started to really downpour and it made me feel even worse than I was already feeling.
Home.
I had to get home and pack. Maybe I could learn to control this and then come back. I hated the idea of basically abandoning my family but I couldn't hurt Asher. And I knew Andy would keep him safe. His self control was how mine used to be.
As soon as I arrived in our driveway, I realized I didn't have my key... and we had an alarm system. A very touchy and secure alarm system.
F*ucking fantastic.
I wonder if I could convince technology to let me in. At the thought I wrapped my arms around my stomach and began to laugh. Hey... I laughed. Maybe there was hope for me yet.
When I stepped onto the porch one of the security lights flickered on, startling me.
F*uck. Andy and his lights....
Disarm. I held my hand out and hovered it over the lock, like an idiot may I add. But, to my surprise, the door clicked open.
I gasped in disbelief. No f*ucking way.
Putting my hand on the knob I twisted it and the door opened without a sound. I couldn't believe it. What else could I command with my mind. It almost scared me. I mean I've read books and watched shows and movies where vampires had special gifts but I never thought that- I mean I never thought that I'd ever be one... or that they existed either, even though I believed.
I wondered what else I'd be able to do. Or Andy... God how I missed him.
I walked in slowly and flicked on the living room light, afterwards shrugging off the now soaked leather jacket I was wearing and left it by the front door.
I inhaled deeply, looking around, smiling.
Home. How I would miss it. I bit my lip, trying to hold back my devastatingly depressing emotions and headed for the stairs. I needed to get out of this dress.
Once inside the bathroom, I slipped off everything and jumped into the shower. I looked like a drowned rat. I didn't want to start my journey terrifying people.... even though I had a feeling that might end up happening quite a bit on my way.
