Attracted To Trouble - Nick Robinson

Chapter 29 - Undecided

I woke up from the sunrise. I checked my phone to see what time is it, it was 6:00 a.m, I still had time to go to school but I didn't bother. I packed up my things and sat down on a bench. I start crying, worrying about this baby and Nick. I finally convinced myself to think about the positives. I'm going to keep the baby no doubt about it! Maybe this will be a good thing... But Nick, I needed to tell him! I needed to see his face again! I couldn't just pick up my cellphone and call his phone this time because he's in jail. This time I was literally on my own...

I didn't know this bench I was sitting on was a bus, until I saw the city bus come and drop off some people. Although I didn't want people to see me in tears, they all couldn't help but stare.

Lady: "Whats a young girl doing out, is she homeless?" Some lady asked her friend by whispering.

Then both ladies, looked about 60 years old, came sitting next to me.

Lady: "Whats wrong dear?"

"Um nothing thanks for asking" I said smiling whiping my tears

Lady: "Something is wrong, come on you can tell us" she said in a persuasive way.

I took a deep breathe and I suddenly got this feeling, a bond feeling from these two old ladies who I know I can trust. They seem wise and kind so I just went ahead and told them both everything; from getting ready to go to a party with my best friend Kimberly, from meeting Nick, from getting abused by an old man who ends up being Nick's dad, from having ambulence take me to the hospital in front kids from the party, from my mom kicking me out of the house the next morning, from Nick suprisingly visiting me at the hospital, from my best friend Kimberly hating me for talking to Nick because he was her crush, from my Aunt Cathy providing a home to stay in, from the first kiss me and Nick had, from meeting Nick's family that didn't end well because he was told his little sister passed away, from argueing with Nick because I felt guilty I was with him knowing Kimberly likes him, from breaking up with Nick, from Nick telling me he murdered Kimberly without knowing it was her, from seeing him getting arrested because of a so'cal friend named Chris called the cops on him, from my aunt kicking me out of her house because I'm pregnant.

Both of the ladies eyes widen, they were shocked to hear a story like mine. I really have been threw a lot, and it all happened so quick one moment I'm always home doing nothing and now here I am on a bench with no home and two strangers I'm telling my business too. Life is crazy.

Lady: "Sweetie, every loss has a gain"

I started thinking about what the lady said but I haven't gained anything? A baby, I'm thankful to have but with what home or family will my baby be raised from? I start to have anxiety!

"I do all this shit for other people and then when I wake up, I'm empty! I have nothing! I always get myself in their fucking situations! I give everything to other people and nobody ever- ugh I just don't get it!" I said loudly and shaking from anger.

I took deep breathes to calm down

Lady: "Okay calm down darling, look I truely believe you should stay with this boy, what was his name Ni-Nick! Yes! Stay with him, people like him, people with a horrible past like him, want to be a better person, and if you keep shutting him out of your life it makes things worse for him."

I froze, this lady was right! I did keep shutting him down and he did need me!

The other lady: "He'd most likely be in Junior Jail down town by highway Avenue" she said pointing towards the direction

"Thank you both so much! Do any of you know what I can do to get there quick and free" I said while getting up and getting my stuff.

Lady: "This bus coming our way, here you go!" She says handing out money for me to have

"Thank you so much! Thank you both! Goodbye!" I said while waving goodbye and walking towards the bus.

It was a 30 minute drive,  the bus finally stopped at the bus stop near the place. After a ten minite walk I was finally at the Junior Jail hoping Nick is actually there. I went inside, this place was hardcore. It was cold, old, molded, and had a lot of broken tiles. I went up to the front desk. The lady was reallt old, her hands were shaking, skin wrinkled up, and her hair was super white.

Lady At The Desk:  "What do you want?" She asked rudely.

"Uhh I'm here to see if someone is locked up in this prison"

Lady At The Desk: "Ugh name?"

"Layla-"

Lady At The Desk: "Not yours. The prisoner."

"Oh Nick Mitchelle. 17 years old."  I said trying to give information to this lady so she can find him quicker.

Lady At The Desk: "Yeah yeah blah blah blah he is here."

"Can I see him please?" I asked nicely

Lady At The Desk: "You must be a family member, or 18 years or older with an I.D"

"I'm his... cousin" I said uncomfortablely I just really wanted to see him.

Lady At The Desk: (takes a good glance at me) "Very well" she hands me a pass and points to the door I needed to enter into.

The pass said which seat I needed to sit on, and Nick will be on the other side of the glass.

I finally found my seat and waited for Nick. I was really really nervous. I heard an alarm and the door opened. It was Nick! Nick came out with a cop behind him then unhandcuffing him and letting him sit down.

I was extremely happy but Nick looked miserable. I got the telephone we use to talk to each other and so did Nick, he looks at me straight in the eyes. We didn't talk for a whole minute just looked at each other. I started crying because I can't believe he was in jail and I was having a baby!

He looks at me with that "aw" face and smiles.

Nick: "Don't cry" he says smiling threw the glass.

"I miss you so much! I'm so sorry! I'm sorry!" I said crying even more realizing everything thats happened to him.

Nick: "Everything happens for a reason right?" He said positively!
God he's so cute and optimistic.

"but all this was all my fault" I said while whipping my tears.

Nick: "Look Layla being here made me realize a lot and helped me calmed down. I accepted the fact you wanted nothing to do with me, so I'm going to move on. I forgive you, and I hope you van forgive me and we can go our own separate ways."

"Seperate ways? Nick this whole thing made me realize I wanted to be with you.." I said in a depressed tone.

I can't believe he was talking about moving on! I know what I want now, I want him. I want my baby to be with his dad too! What do I say?

Nick: "Don't start with that! You always do that!"

"Do what?" I asked

Nick: "You want to leave me then come back to me, why do you do that? I think it's best if we just-"

"I'm pregnant." I said inturrpeting him.