I tried my best to deal with the pain from Blake. I knew Louis was going to hit Blake but why didn't I stop him? I think I wanted Louis to hit Blake back. Louis would glance over at me every now and then and I would casually look back. I felt so calm and relaxed but anxious and nervous at the same time when I am around him. We have always been best friends until our wood shop class got changed and I only see him at lunch. Recently he has started to ignore me and hang around my friend Destiny a lot more than me. I couldn't feel jealous, he wasn't even mine. Destiny could have him if she wanted. I was actually surprised when Louis offered to drive me home, but I guess he just felt bad for me. I think I'm just going to get inside after he drops me off and just sleep until the party. He was going to the party as well and he had his clothes in the back of the car and it would make sense for him to just stay at my house right? I'm probably wrong, he'll leave and head over to Destiny's before I even get a chance to tell him goodbye. We pulled in the driveway of
my flat and just thanked him. I lifted myself up and tried to walk to my front door. I know I'm a bit young to have my own flat but before college I'm trying to learn how to be independent early on. Louis felt the same way and owned his own flat as well. I made it about halfway up my walkway when I felt two big hands pick me up bridal style and I already knew it was Louis. He gave me a reassuring grin and carried me into my house. He sat down on the sofa with me on his lap. I felt extremely insecure so I tried to move off his legs onto the next cushion. As I tried to move Louis only tightened his grip around my waist. "Lou it's ok just let go I'll be fine. You can go to Destiny's house now" and I dropped my head down with a sigh to follow. "Why would I go over Destiny's house and leave you alone?" "Look Lou I know you just feel bad and that's the only reason you're still here and I know you would much rather enjoy Destiny's company so you can go." He looked at me with a hurt expression on his face. "How could think I don't like being around you?" I felt frustrated and just sorta yelled "YOU KNOW WHAT LOUIS I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO THINK OF YOU ANYMORE! WE ALL SEE HOW YOU ACT AROUND DESTINY, IT'S NOT HARD TO TELL YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON HER! I KNOW YOU DON'T LIKE ME BECAUSE IF YOU DID I WOULD RECEIVE MORE THEN A PASSING GLANCE EVERY NOW AND THEN!" I had to calm down before he started screaming back. "Please just get out. I appreciate everything you've done for me but I'm not ready to be completely ignored at the party later by you like nothing happened so for now Lou, this is goodbye." He just sighed and whispered "I'm sorry, I'll see you later." He placed me softly on the cushion of the sofa beside him and stood up straight. He walked toward the door and looked back after he reached for the doorknob. "Goodbye Dawn" and he just turned the knob on the door and walked out with a tear running down his cheek. I just sat there quietly and I couldn't stop my own self from crying. I needed to get ready for the party and here I am in my school clothes and sobbing on my sofa. I needed to be strong and realize he was over me so it was time for me to completely get over him. I knew though before I made this decision that there would always be one small part of my heart that was preserved for Louis. I realized I didn't have any time to sleep so I walked slowly up the stairs and went to get ready.
