Years. (Phan)

六番目 - Six

Philip Michael Lester
Age: 9
Time: 8:43pm
Home/Wokingham,UK. June 11, 2000

D̶I̶A̶R̶Y̶ ̶E̶N̶T̶R̶Y̶ ̶1̶ Diary Entry 1
So, this will be my diary where I will recount
DON'T READ IF YOU'RE NOT m̶e̶ PHIL LESTER THANKYOU PERSON
NO SERIOUSLY DON'T READ IF YOU'RE NOT ME!
LAAAAAAST WARNING!

            JUNE 11 2000 -BIRTHDAY!

Everyone knows i'm gay, I guess.
Which is true, I am gay. But I didn't want anybody to know.

I told her in confidence, I- I really.
There is no reason to overthink it now.
Should I go to school tomorrow?
C̶a̶n̶ ̶I̶ ̶s̶i̶t̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶D̶a̶n̶i̶e̶l̶ ̶a̶t̶ ̶l̶u̶n̶c̶h̶?̶
If I sit with Daniel now everyone will think were dating. and that will ruin Dans reputation.

I don't want him to get hurt like I did today, he's not even gay but I couldn't let people think he was just because I wanted to sit with him.

Today, it- felt it felt like a real birthday..it wasn't as special as 8, nine never is as special as anything.
8 is my lucky number and it's just one of the cool ages, and ten is double digits,
but 9 is just 9, just another year, like 3, or 6.

I've been learning new words lately, Miss Faterbaker thinks i'm a very good reader, and I think that too. I like reading.

Everyone in my year 4 class is reading graphic novels and fairy rainbow books

(Even some of the boys, I guess it's because those books are easy although i'm not very sure, maybe they just like fairys? who am I to judge?)

And i'm starting on my second book this week, last week I read a story called Wildlife by Fiona Wood, It was very good, although the librarian thought it was a little too old for me. I disagreed, i'm very mature for my age.

In the book it's a story of two girls, who was different lives, one is just starting at the school after a big tragedy struck her life and her boyfriend whom she loved a lot died, and the other a girl who was considered very ugly put on a billboard and made to look like a model, the end is brilliant, they both go on a school camp and gah! I just really liked it :)

I told Jodie ( My librarian ) that I loved it.

She smiled brightly, and immediately recommended three other books for me, I'm sure I have more than 8 books on my tab card, but she really doesn't mind at all.

She's the nicest person ever, She's also very beautiful, she has very very curly black hair with a bit of red in it, large circle glasses, she always wears the same stripy red and navy dress with black sheer leggings and flowery doc martens, She is my favourite person (Besides my mum and daniel, of course!)

To be honest, diary.

I don't know how I feel about Daniel.

He feels better than a friend, but I don't think I have a crush on him, I don't know.. Though.

Maybe I do? Would that be okay diary?

If I were to have a crush on Daniel?

I don't know.

I can't help but feel, that he's better than he lets on, but oh what would I know I'm only 8, no! 9 now, yes.

It will now take me another whole year to realise I'm 9 and then when I'm 10 I'll still think I'm 9, god.

Anyways, diary. Mums calling me down, I have to go.

Bye :)

Fuck
Guys this chapter was so bad
I'm really sorry
I'll bring my A game next week I swear!
I'll write an excess amount and probably Drabble and come out with 4000 words :')
Anyways, Sunday eastern standard time like I'd promised (even if it is really late)
I know I don't deserve people reading this but Thankyou so much if you are,

Thankyou, really.

Malevolent x

P.s:
That book is real! I recommend it and most of Fiona Wood's books, she's amazing, as well as being an avid writer I'm a content reader, so if you want to know any books to read just ask me c;

Oh! And I preordered TABINOF yesterday!

It comes one day before my birthday which is one the 14th!

Anyways, bye again!

Malevolent x