Young and Dumb (n.h au) {STILL EDITING}

Chapter 47

Young and Dumb - Chapter 47

Soundtrack for this chapter:

~ Keep Your Head Up (Andy Grammer)

~ Say Something (AGBW and Christina Aguilera)

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From: Niall:

Hey, can you come over?

I read Niall's text, just before I was about to send him one.

To: Niall:

I was hoping you'd ask me to.

I needed to talk to Niall about something serious. I was done with Peru. I couldn't stand staying in the country that brought so much bad memories.

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"Are you kidding?!" Niall stood up from the couch and pulled on his hair. I had just told Niall that I thought we should take a break. This was the hardest desicion of my life. I never wanted this relationship to end, but my life was changing, hopefully for the better this time, and I needed Niall out of it, so that I could start fresh and from zero. The only way that Niall would let me go, was if we fought, and I guess it was working. I felt so bad lying to him, but I had to try everything possible to make him believe that I didn't want him anymore.

"I've given you a lot of chances, Niall," I tried reasoning, "too many."

"Have you stopped loving me?" He said, barely as a whisper.

I took a sharp breath and closed my eyes. "Yes," I lied.

"I don't believe you!" He shouted, "I know you still love me, please don't give up on me." A sob escaped my lips, before a single tear came running down my cheek. This lie was getting harder than expected.

"I'm not lying, Niall." My voice quibbled. Niall's eyes watered and he grabbed my chin, forcing me to look at his eyes.

"Say that to my eyes," he whispered.

I closed my eyes, more tears coming out from them. I felt Niall's hand wipe them all of, before I opened my eyes again.

"I don't love you anymore."

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I never thought a lie would hurt me so badly. I couldn't sleep last night when I came back from my little visit.

"I don't love you anymore." I saw Niall break through his eyes. The glint of hope I had seen in his eyes, disappeared right away, and turned into darkness.

"What about you said you missed me.. was that also a lie?"

Also.. I cringed at his words. Did he know I was lying? I remained silent as he looked at me, waiting for an answer.

"Why are you lying at me? Did I do something wrong?" I sat back down and put my hands in my eyes, hoping it would blind off the world.

"You're too good for me." I spoke silently. More lies... I never could stop lying... Everytime I lied, I ended up lying more and more.

I felt the couch dip next to me and then I was pulled by Niall to his chest.

"You know that's not true. It's infact the other way around."

"No Niall, I've been a very shitty girlfriend. I've shouted at you a lot, I've been very bossy and I don't know. You are way to good for me and you know it."