Odium (Severus Snape Fanfic) {Wattys 2016}

Chapter 7: Secret Revealed

Severus looked at her he tried using Legilimency on her. She blocked him out and started laughing..

"You honestly think you could get into my head, the first thing we learn as a journalist is Occlumency, because we journalists have so much information that it could lead to the third Wizarding War. Not exaggerating!"
"What did you lie about?"

She looked at him, "Do you like my dress?" He studied her she looked very pretty in this very simple dress. "Yes, you're...I mean it's fine-looking."

"It was my mother's she wore it on her birthday which is coincidentally today, oh she looked so beautiful in it, sometimes I think I can still see her wearing it."
"If I may what ha.."

"She vanished..... Gone, the Aurrors said the death eaters took her, I didn't even try to search for her,  I'm such a pathetic daughter..." she started crying. "All I have given people is pain... I didn't even spare my own parents..." she continued to shed tears, she was broken, in these past couple of days Severus had seen a very brash, blunt woman but today she was broken and hurt, he placed his hand on her shoulder to calm her. She leaned into him her head resting on his shoulder.

"I lied to you when you asked me about my scars, you see after a few.......circumstances I had to leave Beauxbaton, and I joined a muggle boarding school..." Suddenly she became quiet. "Celestia if you don't wish to tell me..."
"They tried to beat the magic out of me... They thought they could. Every day for four years... one day it would be cane, the other days it would be iron rods, it was like I was in a mental institution...my screams I can still hear them feel the pain I felt then. They scarred me, I couldn't remember my childhood, like I had one..." she laughed. "I decided to run away from there, came home to see the house in a muddle, everything out of order. I called out for my mother, but the Aurrors were all I could see, they told me she was missing since three days... possibly the death eaters took her... I gathered all the money I could from Gringotts and I left the country, I lied to you because I didn't want to remember them, they haunt me even today, I guess some memories scar us beyond the point for us to heal them. I'm damaged now. I wanted it all over, I wanted my mother but she left and my dad...well he suffered because of something I did. I sometimes wonder what's it like to have a family, a happy home, a home where I could go and call out to my mom who would be in the kitchen probably telling dad how to cook, and he is trying his best not to burn things, I want to know how it feels to come home to someone, to be hugged by them to say 'I love you' to them. I wonder...what's life like on the other side of this., but I don't feel anything anymore" She wiped her tears then looked at Severus. "Hey wait a second did you call me Celestia, Oh Merlin you did didn't you, that calls for celebration now give me my bottle!"
Severus looked at her, "What makes you think drinking can solve this?" She smiled, "I know drinking won't solve it, but it helps me forget things I don't want to remember..." he could now undoubtedly see his young self sitting there, what Minerva said was true. "Come on lets head back to Hogwarts..."
"Oh no way let me enjoy this beautiful night..." She sat there her head on his shoulder, he didn't mind it but boy did he have some serious personal space issues.

"You're so nice Severus listening to my stories, giving me support, you're a really nice friend, after Marcus I think you are one my best gay friends."

"Thank You Celes...wait did you just call me GAY?" he stood up and faced her. "No need to hide it Severus everyone knows, everyone at Hogwarts supports you and Remus."

He was distressed beyond belief, "ME AND LUPIN, WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN!!"
"Come on now Severus, I heard you and Remus talking and the bite marks and scratches.... I'm not a fool."

"NO, YOU'RE THE BIGGEST FOOL IN EXISTENCE!! I AM NOT GAY!!"

"But...but I heard you and him...."