Dear You,
I've been thinking, and now I'm scared. I scared myself. Surprise, Surprise. I thought about if something were to kill you or if you woke up one day and left and never spoke to me again. I've been having nightmares and it may be my attachment to you or my dependence on you but I die just thinking about it.
To think about not having you lips on my hand all the time or not having your hand in mine is terrible. To think about you in a grave somewhere kills me. To think of you just being gone all the sudden destroys me.
I lost my dad totally unexpectedly. A great day with the family turned into a day of mourning. When you die, if I am still here, I will dance for you. I will sing for you and dance. Something about you makes it necessary for me to have you. Not in a crazy way, in a 'in too in love with you to not need you' way.
But right now, you're alive and you are so sweet. You treat me like a princess. You make me feel like I'm actually loved by a boy.
Honestly, I watch you more and more each day become a man and it makes me so proud. I love seeing you grow. You never fail to impress me or make my heart flutter with your forehead kisses and little whispers. We've come so far.
1.) Strangers
2.) Acquaintances
3.) Friends
4.) Best friends
5.) Frienemies
6.) Best friends
7.) Church buddies
8.) A couple
9.) Totally in love
10.) Stressed
11.) Single
12.) A couple
13.) Totally in love
14.) Fighters
Really, it's you and me against the world. Everyone's spreading rumors and talking trash about us, trying to break us up, but I love you and I'm not going anywhere. I will fight. Forever, because you, us, this is worth fighting for.
I LOVE YOU
I admire you so much. You are such a character.
Thank you for being there for me when she calls me a stupid bitch, threatens me, makes fun of me and gives you hell because of me. Thank you for staying when your friends turn on you because you love me. Thank you for being you. Thank you for loving me.
You give me everything I really never thought I would have. You give me a romantic type love. You give me strength. You give me courage. You give me hope. You give me joy. You give me back a part of me I thought was dead.
I hope I can give you the world in return. I will work and pray and sweat and cough and run and crawl through rain, dust and snow to give you everything you deserve. You deserve so much that no one has bothered to give you. You are amazing. I have NEVER met anyone as strong, encouraging, brave, creative, funny, smart, talented and cute as you.
Happy One Year Anniversary.
Everything was worth it.
~Me
