Dear You,
We broke up two days ago. I thought you were cheating, even though you weren't, and we got into a fight. You said a relationship can't work without trust and that you didn't do anything. You walked away and made me mad and I put on a show.
You didn't seem to care and it hurt. Our relationship was falling apart and you didn't seem to care. You wouldn't even look at me or have a conversation.
I took of the bracelet, that was like a promise ring to us, that you gave me almost six months ago and gave it back to you.
"A relationship can work without trust, because you can earn it back, but it can't work if someone's not trying. If you're gonna try give it back, if not come by later and pick up your things."
You stared at it for a moment with your head in your hands and you didn't touch it. I wanted you to give it back or reach out and grab it and put it back on myself, but I couldn't. I couldn't be weak.
But I was. It hurt seeing you make no attempt to give it back. To stare at it and decide not to try any more.
I asked to go to the office and I called my mom to come pick me up. When I saw you in the hallway you didn't even look at me. You kept walking and you didn't even look for me, it seemed.
She came to pick me up and she took me out to eat, but I couldn't eat. I sat on the floor and cried and I didn't think I would get up. I watched a movie and saw this happy couple and all I could think about was you. How you hugged me. The first time you kissed me. The first time you held my hand. Homecoming. All the crap we'd been through. The love I have for you.
I texted you asking to try and talk it out and you're only reply was 'No.' I cried so hard and later went on a walk. I was sure it was the end. I had a friend come over and she told me you said we broke up in that morning and I thought you thought I dumped you.
I said there was some things I HAD to say and asked you to come down at six. You said you would.
Later, a girl messaged me from your phone asking why I hated her. I told her I was jealous of her and to tell you I didn't dump you.
She said that you dumped me and that I needed to keep her name out of her mouth. That I was calling her names and running my mouth about her talking to you.
I never called her any names, I was jealous though and I did run my mouth but I had already explained it to her. Come to find out, when she found out you dumped me she asked you to homecoming. I knew she liked you. You didn't...I don't think.
Later we got back together. You kissed me in the middle of my sentence and I almost cried out of joy.
She got mad when she found out you got back together with me and yelled at you. Still, you texted her and she texted you even when I was there to see when you knew how I felt.
It made me so mad I told my friend I was going to beat her up and with my rage I would have too, but I prayed and God said,
"Do nothing."
I thought to myself, How am I supposed to do nothing? God said he would handle it, to trust him. So I did.
Today we hang out you told me that she got mad again and she said that she was going to block you because we were together and she didn't like it. You didn't care and she sarcastically said that she hopes you're happy and you said,
"Yeah, pretty much."
I felt good that you stood up for us and for me. I was glad that God provided just like he said he would. Amen, praise God.: )
Today we were better than ever before. Today we came up with nicknames, Bam bam and Kitten. In two days it's out seven month anniversary. And I am more in love with you than ever before.
~Me
