A dream? (Connor franta gay fanfic squeal)

weakness (part 1)

Zach's POV

A few days ago with Connor was amazing. I felt happy for once in my life, but today is different. Today is my mothers birthday........a day I've been dreading for years. When my mom did I always blamed myself. I always wanted her to come and pick me up after school.......I just think maybe if she did try to come get me.......she would be alive.

But hopefully going to Connors will make me feel better. I told Connor about it yesterday and he mostly wants me to be there to comfort me, but I know he just wants to make sure I don't cut........but I did this morning and I know I'm gonna have to tell him about it........he's gonna hate me. I look at my phone and see and text from Connor.

Connor: bae come to me!!!

I smile and go down stairs and start walking to his house. As I'm walk out the door I hesitate. For some reason I feel like my mom should be here right now........I'm such a mess. When I finally walk out the house I start to think about the good times with my mom and how we would act like crazy people even for me being so young.........she was my best friend.

I snap myself out of my thoughts and try to pull myself together. "Alright zach, keep your shit together for connor. Its just a normal day......breath." I say to myself. Great now I sound crazy talking to myself. I look up and see Connors house in the dicstance. Good I'm almost there, I just need to keep myself together until I get there.

I get to his house and walk up to the door and ring the door bell. I look down and gold my arms close to my body hoping he won't check, but I know he will........."hey" I hear and look up. I smile at Connor. "Hey" I say then he pulls me into a hug. We sit there for a few seconds then we pull away and he closes the door. He turns around and looks at me then asks the question I knew he was going to ask.

"Give me your arm..." He says holding out his hand. I shake my head hold my arm closer to me. He wraps his arms around my waist and leans his head against my mine. "Did you cut..?" He ask looking me in the eyes. I nod not knowing what to say. He kisses me and says. "Please don't do it again zach.....please for me?" I look at him and feel ashamed for doing it....

"I promise" I say putting both of my hands on his cheeks. He smiles. "I just want to kiss you all the time you know that?" He says. I smile and laugh. "Then why don't you?" I say. He pulls me into a hug. In the middle of the hug he kisses me neck. I cringe. "Omg please don't kiss me there." I say getting weak. "Why not?" He says doing it again. I cringe again and answer him.

"Because its my weak spot!" He smirks. "What do you mean by weak spot?" He smirks again knowing exactly what I mean. "That is for a later conversation." I say blushing and laughing awkwardly. I try to walk away, but he wraps his arms around my waist from behind and kisses my neck over an over again. "CONNOR STOP!!" I say getting weaker and weaker.

"Stop." I say more quiet while he continues to kiss my neck and I get weaker. I feel him lick my neck and all the sudden a moan slips out my mouth. My eyes widen after realizing what I did. I push him off and cover my mouth. He looks at me and smiles. "I understand what you mean by weak spot now" he whispers in my ear then kisses my neck again.

My face becomes beyond red. "Um we should just go upstairs now." I say awkwardly. "Right behind you" I turn around seeing he still has the smirk on his face. I would say something, but I'm too embarrassed to say anything. Atleast I'm not thinking about my mom. Oh god I can't believe he heard me moan!! He's gonna use this against me all the time now. Great.

We walk in his room and I can't help but still be embarrassed. I turn around and look at the floor. "So um can we forget that happened." He smiles. Then hugs me. "I'm gonna remember that forever." He says. What is this boy doing to me I've never moaned before. Ever. Connor snaps me out of my thoughts. "So what do you want to do? We could watch a movie. Or just lay down and talk. Or I could make you moan again." He says.

Saying the last one quietly in my ear. My face turns completely red and he laughs. "You're so cute." He says kissing my cheek. I finally respond. "Yeah let's watch a movie." He needs and puts a movie on. During the movie he kept kissing my neck over....and over....and over. Do you know how hard it is not to moan?? Ugh this day should be interesting.

(Part 1 end)