Batman [A/I]

9

I sat in the car in silence, at the window this time, staring outside. The boys were rambling on, or singing along to the music. My chin rested on the palm of my hand, just wanting to run away. I was going to leave for my mothers earlier, as soon as I got home. I could feel the boys eyes burning against my skin, intrigued to know what was wrong. To be honest, I didn't really know what was wrong either. I didn't want to take my headphones out, it was my escape. I glared at Ashton's hands on the wheel, you could see that his palms were sweating and the tension in his fingers. What was wrong? Why did I suddenly feel this, anger and pain like when I wanted to self harm. Although, I guess I bought it on myself, I was the one who asked him to tell me. I never imagined it to be that…I don't  know what I imagined it to be… I guess it was the fake happiness I had built up inside, the happiness of the perfect life, with the perfect people, in the perfect place, the perfect everything. It all just slapped me in the face. I glanced down at Michael's hand, which was place on the edge of his knee, the middle finger tapping down to an offbeat. He was hiding something that was eating away at him inside. I could tell because I was feeling the exact same, I just didn't know what was eating away at me. I tried to go back to that moment when I asked Ashton to tell me what he had been meaning to. I tried to think back to the point that I felt like running away. The car pulled up outside my apartment, I said goodbye to them as a group, glancing at Ashton as I climbed out, who was staring out ahead, his hands still tightly gripped on the wheel. I watched as the car drove away, and that's when I knew. I was starting to fall for Ashton Irwin, and all I wanted to do was pick myself up and run away, as far as I could.

I was rushing around my apartment, packing everything into my suitcase. "It's hard to make a change, think of all the lies that we've been told. Everything we have can all be gone, before you know" I sung to myself, trying so hard not to crack. I stood in front of the mirror in my bathroom, with the door open, razors and all sorts staring down at me. I was hesitant to pack any, instead I let out a cry of pain as I slammed the door shut, causing the mirror to smash. I zipped up my suitcase and dragged it through to the front door. I tugged the suitcase down the stairs to my car. I sat in my car, and took a deep breath. I looked down, and without realising I was wearing Ashton's hoodie still from earlier on at the beach. I placed my hands on the wheel and put my head against them. "What am I doing?" I sighed. It was early evening now, and I was waiting at the traffic lights outside the restaurant I worked out. At first glance I saw people sitting, but something else caught my eye. I looked again, at a familiar looking man rushing around the whole place, asking around for something. I soon discovered it was Ashton as he stepped out of the restaurant, his hand pushing his hair back as he stared around the town. He looked sweaty, bothered as if he'd been running round everywhere. "You and I can make our escape…" I sung as I looked at him. The lights turned green, and I looked forward starting to drive onwards. "But you love someone else" I said through gritted teeth. Earlier on at the beach, as we leant against the car, he looked away back at the sea and told me that there was this girl he had been seeing recently, and that he really liked her. He wanted to tell me, and to make sure I was ok with it. I stared up at him, from one eye to the other. Instead of telling him the truth I said I didn't mind, as we were just friends. "Buddies?" He smiled, placing his arm around me. "Buddies!" I smiled as I moved into him, but I just held a straight face glaring at the ground as my head rested on his chest. I was driving up the road to my mums when I saw people rushing around, heading towards her house. I got closer ambulances and police cars were parked outside. I pulled up down the road, and ran. "What's going on? What's happened?" I asked quickly, as a policeman stuck his arm out. "I'm the daughter of the woman who lives here, please let me through!" I said, pushing down on his arm causing it to retire. I ran into the house, past all the moving paramedics. I stopped as I was on the landing, seeing a familiar pair of shoes coming from behind the door. I slowly stepped closer, seeing paramedics lifting a body onto the stretcher. "Mum…" I said, my voice catching in my throat. My mother laid lifeless on the stretcher, a blanket being placed over her. "Please." I said walking in closer, and holding the blanket away. "This is my mother…" The paramedics exchanged looks and removed the blanket. "What happened?" "It appears that your mother hadn't been attending chemotherapy, and the hospital tried to contact her and even came to the house, but she wouldn't let them in. She passed away this afternoon…I'm sorry!" The tears flooded from my eyes, knowing that I hadn't made it in time. Knowing I had wasted the chance to be in contact with my mother when she needed me the most. Knowing that I was having the time of my life, when her life was coming to an end. "I'm sorry mum…" I said as they finally placed the blanket over her. 

I sat on the steps outside, as the paramedics and police were finishing up. "Is there anyone you would like us to call? To keep you company?" A policeman asked as he leaned down. I wiped my eyes which were sore, as I nodded. I told him the name and number, and he walked away to phone. "He said he would be here as quick as he can! So in about 20 minutes!" The policeman said patting me on the shoulder. "Thank you!" I said as he walked away. I grabbed a piece of paper from inside and a pen. "These dark clouds over me, rain down and roll away. We'll never fall apart cos we fit together like two pieces of a broken heart." I looked up as I heard a car pull up outside. "What's wrong? Are you ok?" He said as he ran up the path way. I stood up, throwing my arms around him. His warmth, protection was refreshing. He stroked my hair gently with his hand. I wiped my eyes as I moved out of his hold and smiled. "I have a chorus for you!" I said passing him my piece of paper. He lead me over back to the steps as he read it. "Amazing!" "Help me with the rest?" I asked. He nodded and smiled. I took the piece of paper from him again and wrote 'Two Pieces written by Imogen and Luke'.