Why? || Miniminter

Chapter 2 - Rude?

Lace was out, I was alone in my room writing and shiet in my notebook. Simon was still the jerk he was yesterday. He didn't text me all night, he let me fall asleep with tears falling down my face and I know for sure that that's not suppose to happen in a relationship. He makes me so mad, but I love him. I can't leave him. But maybe Lace was right after all? What if it's actually for the best that Simon and I isn't a thing anymore. 

But it hurts, I can't think like that. It hurts my brain and my heart. My heart wants him, oh yeah, it wants to be with Simon as much as it can. While my brain has some sanity. It knows it's wrong, I'm not suppose to feel like this. But who the fuck cares what my brain whats? I'm a teenager, I'm stupid, I make wrongs, and I want Simon. 
I just wish things were simpler. In times like this, I appreciate that Simon makes videos, and has not only one, but two channels.

Because even though I'm still pissed with him, I miss him. And as the stubborn girl I am, I watches his videos instead, it helps a lot actually, but it's not the same thing. I want him, and I want him close. And inside me, because why not?  I want to feel his lips move in sync to mine, but that ain't happening until he calls me, and wants me there, and proves to me that he actually wants me as bad as I want him. 

After watching his videos for a while, I hear the door close and sighs to myself. Oh well, since she's back home, I guess I can start with my acting now. So I put on a fake smile, closes the laptop and puts it away before taking a deep breath in and then breathes out loudly, and after that, I walked downstairs to greet her. 

"Hey" I start simply, this was actually a lot harder than I imagined it would be. "Hello," Lace answered with no emotion or whatsoever. "How are you?" I'm trying so hard to sound cheerful, but it's very difficult. "Alright," She begins, turning around so she was facing me," What's up with the friendliness? You were pissed yesterday, why so talkative now?" She looks dead. Like, she has no emotions showing in her eyes. When we first moved together she was so nice and friendly, and now all of sudden she becomes this emotionless robot. 

"Nothing's up," I walk up to her and grab her hands, "We're room mates, I can't stay mad with you forever, right?" I take her hands to my hips and quickly take my arms around her neck, embracing her in a hug. She hugs me loosely back before taking a step away from me. "I've realized that you only wanted my best, and I'm," Oh, I so hope that she buys this, so I can find out about whatever she's hiding from me, "Sorry." I finish my sentence and  she gives me a weak smile before hugging me. "Aw, I knew you would come to your right senses. That Minter guy isn't for you," She takes a step back so I could look in her eyes. "We should go hunting for another boy to you!" Lace sounds way to excited over this. Simon and I haven't even broken up yet, but I'll let her believe that for a sec. But no way in hell that I'll go and hunt a boy with her. She makes it sound like guys are animals, no wonder she's been single for so long. 

"I rather not," I tried to sound a bit down, and she bought it. Hah, what a loser. "We just broke up, so I don't feel like going out. If that's okay?" I was trying so hard to make it believable, and I succeeded, because the next thing I knew was that she went to our small kitchen and after a lot of weird sounds and struggles she comes back the hallway, where I still was, and showed me some ice cream, "Netflix and Ice cream?" She smiled hugely and I nodded my head and gave her a little laugh. And before I knew it, she was out of sight. 

This pretending thing is working so well. I don't know if she's just stupid, or what because we've been living with each other for a long time, I would've thought that she knew by now when I was lying. She sure knew when I lied yesterday, so I don't get her. 

Oh well, since she's picking a movie now, I'll take a little sneak peek in her bag that she left by the shoes in our hallway. Her big black bag looked like it contained a lot of secrets. I tip toed, like I spy, to the bag, and looked around me, the hallway wasn't big at all and the livingroom was maybe a meter from where I was, but I just hoped I would have the luck on my side today. 

I unzipped her bag and oh god, this made my heart go so fast. I listened carefully but I could hear her pressing buttons on the playstation controller. No rush, Ariel, no rush... 

I opened the bag a bit more so I could have a great look of what's inside before digging my hand in there and messing everything up. 

"You coming soon?!" I could hear Lace shout thru our tiny house. And as I heard her scream, I fell onto my back and nearly got a heartattack. No exaggerations here.
"You okay?" I heard her shout once again, and this time I heard footsteps as well. Oh god I'm screwed. I quickly rose before Lace got a chance to come and rushed to the table where I collided with her. "Ouch, what are you running from?" She said as she had her hand on top of her chest. "I'm clumsy, I just fell," I grinned at her and she just nodded her head as she sat right down again. 

"Actually," I begin and looked in front of me at the TV. "I have to pee real quick, pick a movie and I'll be right back." And said and ran out from the living room, giving Lace no time at answering. 
I quickly ran to her bag and was about to close it when I saw her phone. 
If she has a secret, she sure has it on her phone. Everybody's on their phones now days, so let's hope for the best. I crossed my fingers mentally and grabbed her phone, closed the bag and ran to the bathroom.