Why? || Miniminter

Chapter 15 - Pokemon GO

Have he moved on? Nah, he can't.. It's been like a week, there's no way he's with someone else already. Fucking knew it, that asshole had been cheating, probably with multiply girls as well. 

5am on a Wednesday, simply can't sleep, so I'm stalking my ex boyfriend on twitter and instagram and everywhere he has an account. 

After that fight, or argument, or whatever you wanna call it, we simply broke it off. One fucking year for nothing. He meant so much to me, but I was absolutely trash to him. And before you all judge me because I'm "stalking" him, just remember that he has two youtube accounts with millions of subscribers, and I am following some fans of his on my twitter so it's pretty hard to move on when he's all you see. 

Should probably block everyone who mentions him, but that's just too many. And it's not even that, even if I would block the people on my timeline, people are still mentioning me, telling me about this girl. 

'Ariel, when did you and miniminter break up?' 
          'Simon's too good for you anyway, happy he left you :)' 
  'Is miniminter cheating on you?????'

People really can't handle their own business these days, why do they even care. It's not like he's gonna fall for a random fan on the street, especially if she's a cyberbully. Like, all of this tweets hurts, even if they don't intend to harm me, it hurts to see his name, or twitter in this case, specially the tweets where they include a picture of my ex and a girl getting all close and cosy. That's not what I wanna see. I don't want to see him happy with another girl a week after we ending a relationship. I want him to hurt like I do.

I honestly don't get people who are like "I just want him to be happy, he deserves it, blahblahblaaah". Like I fucking loved him, and he was probably cheating all the time, with my room mate, girls at bars, clubs, he probably fucking bought hookers as well, wouldn't surprise me at all. So yeah, pardon me if I don't want him to be all lovey with a new girl this fast while I'm still here, crying over him.

It's gone an hour now, and I've put down my phone for the night. I'm laying in bed, holding my pillow tightly with my arms. In all honestly now, creds to everyone who manage to fall asleep even tho they're breaking inside and to everyone who still go to work with a freaking smile, like how do you do it? Teach me your ways master, because I haven't been able to do shit for a week. My house is a mess, oh right, I got a small apartment a bit outside of London, it's quite cheap actually for being so close to London but it's nice. Because as you remember, my room mate was a dickhead and so is my ex, so now I have my own place. 

But well, my house is now a mess, because I didn't realize how much one boy could fuck you up, so all I feel like doing is to stay in bed and I've probably lost so much weight as well, because I don't feel like eating, and I smell so bad and ugh. I hate this so much.

After loads of thinking, I finally managed to fall asleep and woke up at 4 pm, exhausted and sweating. Too much dreaming, turning and twisting, this was absolutely not a good night for me. 
As any normal person would do when they wake up, I checked my phone. Loads of notification, like always, but none of them from Simon. Kind of happy because he's not clingy but I want him to apologies, to try and win me back. Isn't that what everyone wants when they break up? But that rarely happens, only in movies, which I've watched loads of this week. 

Most of the notifications were from twitter, asking about him and her. But that's life, they're curious, I would also be like them if my otp broke up.

Oh well, the time was already 5pm, time goes by quickly when you open your twitter app, and today was one of these days when I need to shower and go food shopping. So I quickly jump in the shower, and that feeling when the warm water is running over your body is so good when you haven't felt it for a week, and washing my hair was magical. I should do this more often.

When I was done, I got dressed and grabbed my stuff before leaving. I didn't have to walk that long to get to the store which was really cool, because who has the energy to do that? I listened to music and walked along with the beat, I looked around at the environment and tried to get all my thoughts about him out of my head. I didn't acknowledge the other people around me, and bump into a small feminine body when I did my turn to get in the store.

"Oh excuse me," I said and gave her a small nervous smile, "It's fine, ever since this pokemon go app came app, all I've been doing is to crash into people, I'm sorry" She spoke, looking at me quickly before giving her phone the attention again. "Pokemon go?" I ask her, out of curiosity, and she looks at me with wide eyes, "You don't have it?" She kind of yells, "How can yo-" She stops mid sentence and looks at the phone and quickly aims her camera at me, "it's on you," She concentrates and swipes her finger up multiple times, "What's on me? What's pokemon go???" I ask her, but she continues to swipe her finger, "GOTCHA! haaah!" She suddenly exclaims which makes me jump, "What did you get?!" I ask her one more time and she shows me her phone, "This one, it's so rare, been looking everywhere for it!" She explains and I recognize the pokemon from the series from when I was little, but since when was this an app? Wasn't that just an april fool two years ago?

"Oh alright," I nod, and takes my phone out from my pocket, "What's the app called now again?" I ask, and she takes my phone and types in the name. "So what's the point of the game?" I ask her as the game downloads. We both were walking inside the shop now, and grabbed all the stuff we wanted as we talked about this app. She taught me a few things, like how I get Pikachu as the first pokemon, and how to level up quicker, and where poke stops were.

As we got to the cashier, her phone rang and I caught a glimpse of her screen, which read: Simon <3