We're Just Friends

CHAPTER 14: This Kiss

The whole time we were quiet. With the news he heard, he just became so devastated. I could see it in his eyes. He was smiling at me, but his eyes we're just... lifeless. He was not the Justin I knew.

While we were on our back to my house, we decided to pass by the park. We we're still quiet. But as soon as we arrived at the park, I sat on the the swing and he pushed me, and I started to laugh.

"Okay, enough... Enough... Stop! I'm starting to get dizzy!" I said and Justin stopped his pushing and stopped the swing from swinging.

As my swing stopped moving, I tried stand up but since I was dizzy, I had a hard time to find my balance, but good thing Justin was there, so he assisted me to the bench. But as he stood there in front of me, we looked into each other's eyes. He held my hand slowly, as his fingers were playing on my palm, he stopped and he held my hand. His hands were warm, the warmth I've been looking for, for a very long time. And yet ut eye contact was still there. It stayed. Then, he slid his hand to my waist inside my coat, and he pulled me in.

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Is this real? Is this for real? Will this be the real thing? Am I going to kiss him? Should I kiss him? What is happening?!!

O..M..G!!!

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My head swayed to the left.

"Wait. Is this for real?" I looked at his eyes.

His hand that was on my waist loosened. But his hand on my hand, he never let go. He asisted me to the bench on the corner of the park. And as we sat down, his hand let go of my hand, and his other hand slid back again to me waist. And then, he grabbed my chin in the smoothest and calmest way, and he made me face his face, and as I did, I looked into his eyes. He slid closer to me, and he was pulling me to him. My heart was pumping so fast, it wanted to jump out of my shirt.

Our faces were so close, there was no getting away from it. His eyes were on me, and my eyes were on his. I could feel his breath, we were so close. I had this unexplainable feeling inside me. He was nodding and I nodded, it was a body kind-of communication. And right after he nodded he looked at my me assuring with the nodd that I just did. And I just nodded.

Everything was happening so fast. All of a sudden, I could just feel his lips pressing against mine. Then I could feel his hand sliding up to my nape, and he was pulling me more closer, even though there was no more to pull, since everything was all so fast, I just felt both his hands moving, the other was sliding up and down on my back and his other hand's thumb rubbing my cheek.

Then we stopped, he stopped, He pushed me away, I looked at his eyes, and he was looking into mine. I wanted more, I became addicted to his lips. The way he kissed me, there was passion, calm and purity. I felt love.

He stood up and I stood up, and we hugged. My face was leaning on his chest. I could hear his heart pumping so fast. Then he whispered to my left ear.

"Stay." he whispered. My eyes widened. I pushed away from our hug.

"I wish I could. As much as I want to stay Justin, I can't. I already agreed to the university that I'll be going there." I put my hand on his cheek.

"Stay for me. Please. I'll get out. Just stay." he said as he held both my hands.

"Don't. Don't do that Justin. I need you to not do that. Don't do that for me." I tightened my grip on his hands.

"Why?" he asked. His eyes were getting red. It was starting to pour down tears.

"Because... Think abouth things. What happens if things won't work out between us? Think of your family, your parents. This is stupid Justin." I wiped the tears that were flowing down his cheeks.

"I'm in love with you Cailey, these past months of not talking to you has made me mad, it made me crazy. I'm sorry for not being able to be honest with you, it was just that I wasn't sure of what feelings I had for you. I'm sorry for hurting you. Kim told me how broken you got. But please, I would get out for you, just don't leave me. I won't live just as the usual as people see me, without seeing you. I wont be the same. Don't leave." He hugged me tightly and kissed my cheeks non-stop.

"I'll think about it, Justin. We're talking about our future here." I told him.

"Okay. Just think about it." He told me as he kissed my forehead.

"Yeah.. And you think about the decisions that you'll be choosing. But keep in mind. Think of the other people who sacrificied a lot for you future. Don't waste that on me." I told him.

"But how am I going to be with you if I'm going to be staying there?" He asked.

"We'll talk about these things once I'm finished with school and everything else." I told him.

As he was walking me back home, we were holding hands, he liked to squeeze the whole time. I smiled, and thought, was it real? Did he just kiss me a while ago? The kiss that should've happened last New Years Eve?

With me thinking, I didn't notice that we were already in front of the building. He pulls me in for a hug and I hugged him back as well. Then he lets go and holds my head and pulls it to him to kiss my forehead. Then he looked into my eyes

"I love you, Cailey. ANd I'm not in the business of breaking your heart. If you won't reply to my I love you's yet it's alright. I still understand. But I promise, just think about the things I told you. " he said as I smiled and looked down.

"Goodnight Justin. I will, don't worry" I said and as I let him go, I walked to the building and went inside.