Part 7
Connie.
Jacob held me so tight, I could feel his heart beat against my breasts. I saw in his big brown eyes that he cared A LOT. And not just to get into my pants I could tell, I could tell a lot from a mans state and his stare was warm, gentle, soft. I wanted to be held all night by him but then I needed time to myself to think, to just get my head around things just peace and quite for a while not that I didn't want Jacob to hold me tightly not that I didn't want him next to me in my bed. I wanted him so badly but it wasn't the right time.
My head my banging, "did I go out last night?" "I couldn't have". I shot up like lighting looking around trying to get a good look around the room, I woke up in my office "what the fu" my version was slightly blurred, as I was half asleep. I gave myself a second to get myself together, to see Jacob sitting in my office. What was he doing here I was so confused at this moment. He was asleep his head hanging over his shoulder he looked so peaceful so calm so beautiful . I was piecing together everything that happened as to why I woke up in my office and why was Jacob here! I got up and check my phone 23rd April was the first thing I read and then everything came floating back to me. A single tear hit my hand just thinking about what happened that day. I was in my own world then I heard movement and told myself to focus. I quickly wiped the tear that rested on my cheek before Jacob woke up.
"How are you feeling now?" Jacob asked in that sexy rough tone, that tone of voice made my pussy throb in my pants damn it I need to stop this. Rubbing his eyes. Did he stay here and watch me sleep?
"I feel a lot better now, thank you. Did you watch me sleep?" I had to ask because.... Well that's sweet I guess. To make sure I was okay nobody had ever done that for me before.
"Yes. You was upset and Stressed i felt the need to stay just to make sure you didn't have a bad dream, just to see if you are okay you know. Did I make you feel uncomfortable?" This man was lush. He was everything i looked for in a man. He was just missing something Sam had. I didn't know exactly what it was yet but I will find it.
I had never been with anybody else other than Sam. He was the love of my life... Well i thought he was until he took off to America with another woman. That broke my heart in a million pieces. After what we both went through the memories we shared and the tears the laughter everything we had was taken away. I never looked at another man since Sam took off but I know i need to let him go but I can't just drop him. The love of my life how do you just drop that special somebody. But Jacob had an effect on me that sent chills right down the back of my spine. That just made me forget Sam like he never meant shit to me which I wanted in a way. Jacob could be the one but I just needed to find that thing Sam had but I'm not to sure what it is. It's mad how it's been ten years since he up and left without a word to me and I'm still hanging on thinking he will come back to me, waiting for him to sweep me off my feet. Jacob made me wet from the way he spoke, his movement, his voice. I lied I said no man had ever had that effect or made me feel that way before but Sam did, he made me wet from his eyes. But the love he made to me wasn't all that great. It was like his mind was with somebody else. it was like it was all about him never me. The love wasn't made to me like he always said he would. It was like it was to another woman. Once or twice he moaned another woman's name, I lay there frozen I didn't call him up on it because he would just deny it. But like the stupid woman I was I just couldn't let him go. Nothing could change that. Now Jacob was in the picture I felt myself letting Sam go. Hope. It was all hope I felt like it was time to let him go... not to let him go fully but slowly the love I have will always remain in my heart the heart he broke. For so many years I turned down good ass men for the one who couldn't care about me the man who broke my heart that can never be fixed. Jacob wasn't about to be turned down no way. The games had to stop, but my heart was so broken it made it so difficult for me to love! I wanted to love. I wanted to love Jacob.
"No... No not at all. Thank you for caring it's been along time since somebody showed me that they care. Thank you Jacob"
"You were in real pain, Connie it was hard to watch!" his eyes burning into mine as he pushed the chair close to the sofa. As she licked his lips, I could feel myself begin to get wet in my pants I needed to control myself. I wanted to take his lips, I wanted to feel his hot body pushed up angrily against mine right now! "Focus!!!" I told myself. I tried so hard trying not to show how much I wanted him.
I needed to stay professional.
