Family Matters

Chapter Eleven

"You planned this, why the hell would you do that?" I let go of her taking a step back. Hearing her say that felt like she had physically struck me I couldn't even comprehend why she would do something like this.

She landed shakily on her feet and leaned against the door like she need the support, "It doesn't matter I'm not going anywhere."

"Didn't your mother tell you not to stay just because the sex is good," I said bitterly.

"Though that was amazing that is not why I'm staying and you better not have been insinuating that I'm whore because if you are I can promise you I'm gone. Now quite being an ass Lance."

I shivered when she spoke my name, "That's not what I meant but I don't know why else you would be staying it's not like we talked out whatever your problem was. So why are you staying if it isn't for my amazing skills?"

"I'm staying because when you kissed me I felt something a spark and then this inner peace like even if the world ended at that very moment I would be okay because I was with you. It felt like you were the part of me that made me feel alive and leaving you would just be killing that part. Without you nothing would feel worth it."

"Okay," I nodded and started walking to the living room with Sara following behind me, "God you scared me, I had no idea what I was going to do if that didn't work! What were you thinking?" I couldn't stop yelling at her even though I knew it probably was not helping anything.

"I'm sorry." she said quietly stopping a few feet away from me, "It's what I thought was best. What I still think is best."

"How is leaving me the best thing to do and who the hell is it good for? You?"

"No, you. This is what's best for you, staying away from me is the best thing you could do," she seemed to be stumbling over her words out of frustration,

"If anything I should be the one saying that; since you have met me your whole world has been shaken up, you've been in constant danger and you've been hurt."

"It's not the first time I've been hurt or that I've been in danger for that matter. And what you don't seem to get is I'm not worried about any of that."

"It could get you killed Sara."

"I'm not afraid of dying."

"Being away from you would be worse than death for me, I'm not scared of dying but I am scared of living my life without out. But I'll humor you mostly because I'm curious, why should I stay away?"

"Because he was right."

"Who was right?"

"My father," she yelled pulling at her hair in frustration, "My father was right."

I gently pulled her hands from her head and held them in mine trying to calm her down, "What do you mean, what was your father right about?"

She yanked her hands from me and stormed across the room and tried not to look at me, "He always told me that anything good in the world became tainted when I got to close. That I could drive a saint to sin, and Gandhi to kill. You are the best damn thing on this whole damn planet and I'm not going to ruin you anymore than I already have. You're putting yourself in danger to protect me and Sean is out doing God knows what just to keep me safe. You are putting yourself in the position to lose everything just so I don't have to deal with some bad shit."

"You still don't get it, without you I'm nothing! An empty shell with no motivation to go on. I would give up everything including my own life just to make sure you are safe. As for Sean he is doing all of this because it's his problem too and he understands why I couldn't leave you; if the roles had been reversed I would do the same thing for him. Where's your father I want to explain to him that you can't be tainting anything seeing as I have never met a better person than you and I have met a lot of people in my life."