Attack on Titan (fanfic)

Out of the walls

After the dust had settled from the most recent struggle I had left. I did not go to my door in fear of another encounter with Megan. I thought she would never turn against me, but in these hard times its understandable. The food shortages and the riots that started when me and Eren teamed up to kill Titans were unending. They never ceased, you think people would be happy with having a fighting chance against the Titans. People change so I guess not. I guess they rather be eaten by Titans then to eat less. I threw the ball I had been using to occupy my mind. It hit against the tree making a loud bang. I had used my powers to fly outside the walls. I landed on a tree in one of the forest, I liked to look at the vast forests and silence for once. Like.... If I wanted.....I could leave... Abandon everyone...I could do it. I really could, but that's not me. I'm not that kind of person to abandon the ones that need me but won't admit it. The ball that I had thrown had settled on the ground. Should I get it...or leave it. I couldn't really get down....I didn't bring my 3DMG gear so getting down would involve me changing, I'll get down later. I leaned my head back against the tree and dozed off.

2 hours later~

Ugh what's that sound for fuck sake. I opened my eyes waiting for the piercing sun to momentarily stun my vision but my eyes were not met by the availing light. I shot my eyes open and looked around scared I had slept till the sun went down. "Oh FU-" I covered my mouth forgetting I was outside the walls, any Loud noise could summon Titans. I had to go, now. I changed having the pain travel through my entire body, every cell and fiber in my body vibrated with electricity and spirals of pain. No one knew the pain changing caused me, I didn't want any more problems to arise. I just kept it quite. The change had finished, I walked towards the edge of the tree branch were the leaves had started on each smaller branch connected to the larger one. My claws scraped against the bark leaving lines spaced a bit apart. The lines being were my claws left indentation in the tiny bristles of the tree. I spread my wings, the wind ruffling each of my feathers, feathers that together created a unit alike the tree and its branches. Units of small individuals always create such beauty together. One foot walked off the tree followed by the others. As I fell the winds filled under my wings making me soar near the ground. I used a single claw to stroke the grass that padded across the entire vast field. I got a bit too close to the ground for comfort and flapped my wings causing me to go up higher into the light blue pigmented sky. I got closer to the walls that me and many others called home, soaring way above them being sure not to be seen. I reached a spot in the sky were there was a breach in the clouds, nothing but scattered puffs of the soft clouds, this allowing me to see down onto the camp were I lived. The camp for the scouts. I started my decent closing my wings slightly. I plummeted down quickly and shot my wings open right near the ground stopping centimeters away from the floor. I closed my wings fully dropping lightly onto the ground. I shuffled my weight and shook my body, sort of like a dog would right after a bath to get the water that stuck between the fibers of its fur out. I heard footsteps close in and someone ran into me hugging me. I chirped being shocked by the situation my wings in the air as I had been hugged in an awkward position. Who had engulfed me into there arms? I couldn't turn, I was being hugged like a owner would hug a lost pet. I was let go of and I could finally see the person who had hugged me. It was Eren. My friend... The first one I had made in the scouts. I closed my wings from there recently awkward position. "Where did you go! Everyone was worried. We thought you died!" Eren spoke full of concern. He kneeled down to be at my level. "Why nat why." He put his head down. "At least I can tell them your okay now, well... The others that would care for your safety. Some of the others... Are on Megan's side..but that's not important. I'm sure as hell not on her side." Eren smiled a bit "so you have fun outside the walls?" He patted my head and I followed it by a groan and pawed his hand away. I'm not a pet. He took his hand off my head. He chuckled "fine fine. Why don't you turn into a person so I can hug you like normal?" I turned my head away thinking of how much pain changing would cause me. "Fine fine it's alright maybe later! Well you should go rest. I'm going to inform the others!" He got up and ran towards the dorms. Guess i have to change back now. I cringed a bit knowing the pain I would be it. The change started and i whined. I held in my breath so I would not make another sound. I fell to my knees and gasped for air trying to catch my breath and strength again. Someone's hand was on my shoulder, at this point turning around would hurt me more. "What." I exhaled my words. "Tch fine then, I didn't know I was a what situation." He groaned. My eyes widened a bit, I have to act alright and not hurt. "Sorry Levi, heh didn't know it was you." I chuckled a bit and cringed my body as I struggled to get off the floor. Levi tried to help me up but I didn't want to act hurt so i swatted his hand away. This caused me to topple over though. Just laugh it off nat. I chuckled a bit and the laughing felt like it vibrated my entire body bones and all. The pain excruciating, I couldn't take it. "Welp Levi I'll see you later heh." He narrowed his eyes at my sentence "alright. Anything wrong?" He looked at me closely. "No nope not at all corporal!" I smiled nervously. "Alright then!" He smiled and hugged me tightly, very tightly. Ow my body. I groaned in my head. I walked away and when he was out of sight I clenched my whole body. "OWWWWEEWEWEWEE" I groaned loudly. I continued walking to my dorm and I guess the pain finally, I mean FINALLY went away. I threw myself onto my extremely uncomfortable bed I had in my dorm since the first day of the survey corps. Since the first day of training, since the first day of scout regiment. The same uncomfortable mattress. I can't stress enough how terrible the mattress was. Maybe I'm just trying to find any problems I can to avoid my own. That's probably it. I shut my eyes but couldn't sleep in fear of someone coming into my dorm besides my normal roommates. Megan being one of them. That was probably the most exact reason for why I was awake. In fear she might kill me in my sleep. That was such good reassurance to sleep, mhm yup. I wasn't going to sleep in there. I couldn't, shit I wasn't. I wouldn't dare. I stood up off the bed. It making a loud creak as I leaned my body weight to one side while getting off. I looked around making sure I didn't wake anyone. "phew." I whispered putting my hand on my forehead relieved. I got off the mattress entirely and turned the door knob slowly making sure the locking mechanism in the door didn't make its normal clicking sound. The minute the door opened I darted outside the dorm. I slowly shut the door again, turning around I leaned my body on the door frame. "Thank god." I exhaled My breath I had been holding since I started my escape from my dorm. "Maybe this will all blow over." I spoke to myself out loud in a faint voice. "Yeah or maybe your foolishness will kill us all!" Jean said from across the dorms. "You probably are against us, it makes sense. Why would we have so much luck with two of you. Two with special powers. Seems a little weird to me. I'm staying neutral for now till I have a strong belief your not out to get us." Jean spoke normally. "Heh at least one person has some reason." I chuckled cautiously, having hope I said nothing wrong. "Yeah cadet it's alright." Jean laughed jokingly. I waved signally I was going to leave. I was going to leave. I didn't want to mess up and say something wrong. I walked to the start of the running track and inhaled my breath. Come on relax. I got into the running position, exhaling my breath before I pushed off to start running. As I began running I could feel my blood rushing through my body. "Maybe if I think of a different way to change. If I jump first? If I run maybe?" I panted as I spoke. That was normal though cause I was running. I kept running my feet gripping the ground with every step I took. I jumped and tried changing in the air but I was met by a familiar face. The ground. I lifted my face off the dirt "well that's not it." I coughed from my body striking the ground. I got myself up all covered in dirt. Again. Then I tried again and failed. Again this time for sure. This went on for hours. The sun started rising and I fell to the ground all dirty and scratched. "WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO TRY!" I fell onto my back. This time for sure. I got up and started running. I was tired so my body was hot and I was tired. I wasn't running fast but I guess fast enough to trip and start rolling. I got up and noticed I was lower to the ground. My eyes widened and I looked around. "OMG IT WORKED, HAH. SUCK IT SCIENCE!" Funny thing is no words came out so it was just loud screeches and chirps. So if I run a lot it doesn't hurt when I change? Or is it the tripping and rolling part? The tripping would be funny. Oh I have an idea, heh. I walked over to one of the dorms and flew on top of it. Oh please lord of Odin's stars let this work. I jumped off of the building and front flipped as I fell. Light covered around my body, I changed now with no pain. Yeah that's more I like it. I smirked and when I reached the ground I tumbled and skid against the ground. I lifted my hands. "Yahooo, point one Natasha!" I groaned and fell to the ground. "Minus one point Natasha for the bad landing." Jackie laughed at me from the dorm door. "What are you doing for Christ sake?" Jackie chuckled as she walked over to help me up. She held out her hand and I took it pulling my self up. "Thanks." I giggled dusting my self off. "Well I see you can handle this now, back to sleep now." Jackie started walking away back to her dorm to sleep. "Who needs sleep when your nocturnal." I crossed my arms. Jackie had thrown a shoe I'm guessing cause it hit me in the face and caused me to fall to the ground. "Ow! I'm not a junk yard cat, no need to throw shoes geez." I got up and went behind the dorm as the sun rose up the rest of the way. Having it's dignified over look of the camp. I sat down in the shade the building was casting and leaned my head against the wall. I put my hood over my head and dozed off.