How To Get Him

not that kind of spy

I went home feeling defeated. No, defeated was understatement, i feel devastated. I'm in so so so much sour mood. Yes it wasn't a typographical error i said 'so'3x. I cant help feeling like this. My dream guy. My ultimate goal likes someone else. And it wouldn't be easy to stole him from that someone because that someone is his bestfriend. His bestfriend sebb, a boy.

I went straight to the kitchen to grab some soda. I'm planning to drown myself with soda because alcohol is not possible to have right now, in this house and wihout redd. Claire was baking some cookies and making freshly squish orange juice.

"Hey dear how are...." she cut her own speech when she saw my face. She immediately came and hugged me. Stroking my hair with her hand. After a minute, she stepped back and leveled her eyes with me. "Do you want to tell me what happened?" She asked. Claire will be a good mother, i just wish her son will experience it too, unfortunately he's not around.

And because of that i cried. I cried and sobbed, getting her shoulder wet with my tears. When i finally calmed a little. Claire pulled me to sit on the chair. "Do you want to talk about it?" She said sitting beside me. Her voice was very soothing.

"I guess" i answered very meekly.

"And?"

"Maze likes someone else" i said to her trying to restrain my emotion.

"Ohhh my poor baby..." she cooed. "Does he has a girlfriend?"

"No" a tear fell down my face.

"Did he tell you he likes some girl?" She asked again

"No and no" i said again and hiccups escaped my lips.

"What no and no? No he doesnt tell you? And what's the other no?"

"Its not some girl, its some guy... I think he's gay" i bursted a cry again.

"Oh" she said and furrowed her brows. "He didnt tell you but you heard it" it wasnt a question but a conclusion from her so i need to explain.

"Its not like that." Hiccup "You see, sebb," hiccup "his best friend and i were studying with him." hiccup "Then he started saying hurtful things" hiccup "...to me and just walked out when i ask if he's gay..." hiccup "probably because its in front of his friend" hiccup

"My baby.." she said again. She must has been lost with words.

"Dont worry I'm okay... i'll be okay. I just needed a good cry to get it out of my system" i said standing up, and getting three, yes 3, sodas from the fridge. "Thank you claire" i said hugging her before leaving to go to my room.

As i entered my room, i immediately went to bed and laid down for a while, contemplating what happened and what will happen. As of now, i believe there is nothing that i can do. I'm on the verge of having a war inside my mind. A war between the feeling that I want to say sorry to maze because he probably doesn't want sebb to know, yet my big mouth didn't get the notice and the one that doesn't want to see nor talk to him because it hurts.

When i cannot take it anymore, i took out my phone. I have 3 missed calls. 5 messages.

3 calls from sebb, probably worried. because after we went out of library everything then sunk in my mind and i ran to my car and drove away without any word to them.

4 messages from andrei, marco, sebb, therese all the same 'where are you?'

1 from mirriam 'i know it hurts, if you need my shoulder, I'm here. Luv u'

I quickly dialled mirriam's number. But before i hit call button, my phone buzzed off. Its a call. Not from unknown number. But from the one i know. Its maze. I already saved his number when i gave mine to him. He was calling but i dont know if I should answer it. Heck i didn't even know what to say to him. So i just let it buzz.