Fear

Disappointment

Notes:

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My internet failed me yesterday, so here's the update, one day late,

I'M SORRY!

I love you all, now enjoy chapter 12

*hiddles loki-love gif+wink*

You cuddled up with Loki in his bed and spent a long while there with him, just talking. You discussed everything possible, from riding to food to books, and you enjoyed it. You had started to enjoy being with Loki more and more.

There was a question you wanted to ask him, but you were afraid of hurting him. Fortunately, Loki led you into the subject of last night and gave you the opportunity to ask.

"Loki?"

"Yes?"

"Why did you leave me this morning?"

Loki sighed. You could tell he was trying to find the right words, so you didn't press him any further.

"I was afraid that you would wake up and hate me," he finally said. You sat up in shock and looked down at him with wide eyes.

"Why would I hate you?"

"Because..." Loki started, but he didn't elaborate. You laid down next to him again and cuddled up next to him.

"I could never hate you, Loki. I might have been afraid of you, but I could never hate you. Not after what you've done for me. I mean, where would I be if it wasn't for you? You saved my life twice, and for that I am ever so grateful."

"I would do it a thousand times again, just for you," Loki whispered in your ear. You tilted your head and kissed him lightly. He responded quickly, rolling over so that he lay on top of you. Your lips moved in perfect sync, like you were made for each other.

'G-r-o-s-s,' the tiny voice of your mind said.

'I'd rather be called sanity, since you have none.'

'Well, thank you very much.'

'You're welcome- ew, what is he doing?'

Loki was caressing your sides and a small moan escaped your lips; Loki smirked into the kiss, never breaking it. One of his hands made its way upwards...

You broke the kiss and looked away. Loki quickly stopped what he was doing and you could feel him looking at you with concern.

"Darling, is everything alright?"

You swallowed and turned your head to look into his eyes. He immediately understood and laid down next to you.

"If you don't want to, we don't have to," he whispered in your ear. His cold breath on your cheek sent a shiver of pleasure down your spine, but the damage was already done. You were not ready for this, especially not for him. You opened your mouth to say something, but Loki placed a finger over your lips.

"It's fine, darling, I understand."

You still wanted to say sorry, but you didn't know how. Or why, when you thought about it. What was it even between the two of you? What had happened?

Loki kissed the side of your neck and caressed your sides again. You closed your eyes and gave in to his touch.

Somebody knocked on the door and Loki both shot up.

"It must be my mother", Loki said and climbed out of bed. You quickly followed, since you knew that the queen was not fond of love without marriage and no matter how much you tried to explain, that was what it looked like.