.My Addiction.

My greatest fear.

You hold me close to you; tight

After one of our stupid fights,

It’s barely more than a whisper

But I hear it clear

You just spoke my greatest fear.

“Who will you fight with after I die?”

It’s a punch to my guts

Knocking the wind out of my lungs

I freeze within your embrace

Of a crippling dread I can’t erase

You feel my heart skip a beat.

“It’s okay love, will you just breathe?”

Every song must come to an end,

One rule, I’ll do anything to bend

What are you supposed to do?

When the thing you love most can’t always be with you?

You ask with a crooked smile on your face

“Did my angel just fall from grace?”

How am I supposed to change what’s set in stone?

Cause I won’t be able to live alone

I don’t want to except the truth

Of having to go on without you

With a sigh form you lips you say.

“No answer for me today?”

If I could tell you, I would.

The words don’t come out like they should.

That I’d die without you here,

Cause you’ll have taken my heart away

I stare into your coal black eyes

How do I explain the emptiness when someone you love dies?

I want to cry and scream don’t leave me

But my tears rip you apart

I force my lips into a smile

And hope you see the truth in my eyes,

My arms around your neck I tell you

“I’d go scream at your grave”

You laugh, lift me up and say

‘I’ll wait for you to come everyday”

"Can’t you just stop?

Don’t you see it tears me apart every time you remind me you are going to die?

Of how casually you keep talking about it. I’m sick of the jokes! Sick of the reminders!

I don’t want to watch you die. And it’s killing me.

You always had a death wish. I know you are happy you finally got it but can’t you see what it is doing to me?

You aren’t sacred of dying, but I am scared of losing you.

I would die without you by my side."