.My Addiction.

Forgetting You.

“People always talk about how hard it can be to remember things ...

where they left their keys,or the name of an acquaintance...

but no one ever talks about how much effort we put into forgetting.

I am exhausted from the effort to forget...

There are things that have to be forgotten if you want to go on living.” 

― Stephen Carpenter

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I’ve been trying you know?

To forget you, forget us, that first hello.

I’ve been hoping it was a dream,

That you never existed, no faults to redeem

I’ve been trying to pretend

That my fairytale wasn’t a nightmare in the end,

A tragic reality I keep trying to accept

But each time your face intercepts,

The longing to drench my brain in acid to remove,

Memories, flashbacks and everything that has been,

‘Cause they cut like razor blades on my skin,

Leaving behind the same scars and mind numbing pain.

You’re already gone!

So why don’t you leave me alone?!?

I want to forget the way you’d hold me close in a crowd, your touch

Like you were afraid of losing me, too much

Your angelic smile, a devil’s disguise

Just like the mesmerizing shine in your eyes,

I can see it was all false,

Now that I’m lost in your mistakes and faults,

I want the sound of your laugh

To stop ringing in my ears,

And how my name sounded from your lips

Like it was safe inside your mouth

An illusion that broke down,

It broke down really soon

Loving you was so easy,

Memorizing you was as simple as breathing

Why is forgetting you ripping pieces of me?!?

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Why is it so hard to forget someone?

I guess you can forget things that happen every day,

but it's hard to forget a life you've always dreamed of.

When all of you wishes come true how are you supposed to let go of them?

Even if they give you unbearable pain?