Chapter Eleven
“Erm…” I said.
Jerome face dropped. I felt so bad how he poured out all his feeling for me and ting. I didn’t want him to feel like I don’t want him because I ain’t saying I don’t want him. I just want the right one. I don’t want to be with someone when I’m thinking ‘he *could* be the one’ I want to be 100% sure and I ain’t 100% sure with anyone. I didn’t want to tell him that. He’s my closest friend as a boy like he’s my best friend. I don’t want to change that. I could just see it in his eye as I’m saying ‘erm’ he feels like a dxckhead. I didn’t know how to put it into words to tell him.
“Forget it” he said.
“No wait” I said.
“Nah it’s kool Melissa. Just friends yeah” he said. I was thinking how did he read my mind like that. I smiled and then kissed him on the cheek. I still felt bad. I came out the car and then walked up the road. The care home was at the end of the road. All I did was have flashbacks from when I was little.
Flashback
“Mum! Carla’s pulling my hair” I said.
“Carla don’t pull you sister’s hair please” Mum said. Carla let go of my hair.
“But mummy Melissa called me a cow” Carla said.
“Melissa!” Mum shouted.
“Mum she’s lying” I said in a high pitch tone.
“Am not” Carla said.
“Is too” I said.
“Am not
“Is too”
“Am not!”
“Is too!”
“Both of you quiet or so help me god” Mum shouted. He stopped.
“MUM! Look” Danny said running to her with a mouse in his hand.
Mum screamed and so did Carla. They was scared of mices but I wasn’t. I took the mouse out of Danny’s hand and then I put the mouse in a bag and then went outside and put it in the bin. As I was making my way to the outside bin I was my dad. I waved to him and then went to put it in my bag. I saw some kids at school and then started laughing at me.
“Goofy girl” they shouted and then I ran inside. I went back into our house and then I saw my dad gripping my mum by the neck.
“DON’T FXCKING HIT ME LIKE THAT” he shouted. I was in shock. Danny was crying and so was Carla. My mum was in tears.
“How did you get that love bit then” she cried.
“YOU FXCKING GAVE IT TO ME! WHY DO YOU ALWAYS THINK IM CHEATING ON YOU!” he shouted.
“Dad let go off her!” I screamed. He looked at me and said,
“This aint got nothing to do with you”
“Dad let go off her. You always told me if a man put a hand on me to tell you because it’s wrong and hit them back. You being a hypocrite now” I said. He looked at me and then let go of mum.
“Sorry” he said.
“All of you lot go to your room so me and you mum can talk” Dad said. So me and Carla went into our room and Danny wanted to come into our room so we let them.
“Melissa I’m sorry I pulled your hair and lying” Carla said wiping her tears.
“It’s okay” I said putting Danny on my lap.
“Is mummy and daddy going to be okay” she asked.
“I don’t know. I hope so” I replied.
“I don’t like it when they fight” Carla said.
“I know. I don’t like it either”
“Melissa I love you”
“I love you to Carla” and we hugged.
Back into reality
A tear rolled down my face and then before I knew it I was in front of the care home that Carla lives in. I was angry. I missed my mum and dad so much right now. I’m fighting to be with Carla and I just thought about Danny. I need him to. We need to be together we’re brother and sisters for crying out loud. Someone opened the door and I didn’t care but I just barged in. I was pissed off.
“Excuse me?” one of the care takers said.
“Where’s Carla” I said calmly. She was behind me when I asked her it.
“Oh no” she said. I turned around.
“Someone get her out now” she said.
“Wait”. I went in my pocket and then took out the picture and than showed her. She took the picture and then looked at it carefully.
“That’s me” she whispered.
