Chapter Twenty-Five
Did I ever thought two guys would be in love with me at the same time? No. Two guys that are practically best friends that are having hatred towards each other because of me? What’s good about me? I’m the same little girl that Ricardo would never see in a million years. The same girl that got bullied until she lost herself completely. What’s so different now? I didn’t understand what it was?
“Melissa?” Ricardo gently called to me. I looked up at him instantly snapping back into reality.
“Say something,” he weakly smiled with a nervous look. I was soundless with a million thoughts in my head. I knew how much I was hurt by Jerome but I still love him no matter the scenario. He makes my heart skip a beat ever time I think of him and get chills all over my body when I hear his name. He’s so special to me words cannot even express the exact feeling.
I sighed.
“I’m sorry Ricardo. I’m truly flattered but Jerome has my heart and despite of the whole argument or break up to still controls over my love and I’m sorry but I just don’t feel the same way about you” I stressed over to say. The look on his face was heartbreaking. He’s face looked so disappointed. He couldn’t even look me in the face afterwards. He’s head faced toward the floor and remained there. I felt guilty, like a criminal to his heartbreak.
“Well… might as well know the truth now” he sighed sadly. I didn’t know what to say afterwards.
“Somehow I feel that you do have feelings for me, more than a friend. I might be wrong but I know in your heart you have me there Melissa. Maybe its trapped around the love you have for Jerome. I’d just pray one day it get to come out from the trap and blossom in you heart because when I close my eyes, I see nothing…” he poured out continuing looking at the floor.
“… That’s how my life feels like without you” he sweetly added giving me eye contact. I’m not going to lie at all… it moved me and gave me a smile. I do have love for Ricardo, he’s a great guy and an amazing friend to me. I kissed him on the cheek which made him smile. I think he understood and respected my decision. I asked him nicely if he can take me home because I needed to sort out me and Jerome’s differences and if the conclusion ends up bad… god knows what I’ll do cause I have no where else to go.
The drive back to Jerome’s place with Ricardo was a bit awkward at first. Normally Ricardo would make jokes or we’ll have a calm conversation. I think the rejection over played in his head and he just didn’t bother to start conversation. I don’t wont things to come how they are becoming with me an Ricardo. He’s special to me and our friendship bond can’t break like how it’s becoming. So I started the conversation and it didn’t last very well… pointless. When we finally got there I came out the car and then walked up til I got to Jerome’s door impatiently waiting for someone to open the door. Then I saw Ricardo catch me up to the door. I didn’t even realise I left him. His face still looked a bit disappointed and upset and I still feel guilty. I know if things don’t go well with me and Jerome I’ll be crying on Ricardo’s shoulder and all the feelings he has for me he’ll push it aside so he can comfort me. Then I realised that he’s everything. What would I do without him. He’s such a good guy and any girl would be lucky enough to have him. Just thinking that made me a little jealous and then I realise my mind went off again. Ricardo kicked the door down unexpectedly. I was gob smacked. Did he do that out of anger? It wasn’t needed but no-one was answering.
“What you do that for” I whispered really loudly. He didn’t reply, he just walked in. That was quite rude -_-
It was quiet. Too quiet. It wasn’t normal and it was quite weird. I didn’t understand what was going on. Where’s Jerome? Where’s Carla? Where would they go?
The TV was still on which made me know that they was still in the flat. I looked at Ricardo and his face looked vex… he was screwing and I couldn’t understand why.
“What’s wrong with you?” I questioned him. He looked directly at me.
“This is bullshit” he whispered loudly. I was confused.
“How can he be doing you like that!”
“What are you talking about Ricardo” I stressed to say. Then I heard a noise… like a deep sigh coming room Jerome’s bedroom.
“Well I know someone’s in now” I said. Ricardo looked at me as if I was crazy. But I went on and walked to the bedroom.
“Wait Melissa” Ricardo called out but I ignored and opened the door.
Carla on all fours. Jerome standing up, jeans and boxers down receiving pleasure. I was scarred.
