Chapter 27
"What?" Me, Jerome and Ricardo questioned at once in different tones.
I couldn't believe my 15 year old sister would be so careless and would do the unthinkable to trap Jerome so he has to stay with her. The fact that she will do this to me, her own blood sister for mystery reason.
"I'm pregnant" she bossed with a big grin on her face.
"NO!" Jerome shouted. Just hearing her announce them words out her mouth makes me so disappoint in her. Only 15 years old. I could say I could of seen this coming with her past but I know for sure what I told her did acknowledge in that thick skull of hers. But knowing the father of my sister's unborn child is MY boyfriend which takes the cake even more. Even though these words just released out her mouth like 30 seconds ago I couldn't help but feel like insect getting squashed. The way my feelings didn't matter to Carla and the my heart in Jerome's hands didn't matter either. The both tore me apart and I could function properly again. I felt like I wanted to be sick all over again. The pain would have been less painful than someone carve a big scar all over your face.
I got up and the slapped my little sister on the face as hard as I can. But I didn't seem to make me feel any better. By the look on her face and because it turned pink, it was a painful one. I felt Jerome's arm touch me to say stop or something. I didn't want his hands to ever touch me after what he done. I span around and knee'ed him in his weak spot. At this point I saw rage. I wanted to do more damage to the both of them. I saw my next target. Carla's belly. That demon growing inside of her had to be destroyed. But then Ricardo grabbed my hand to say that's enough. I looked at him and then he pointed his head over to the door. Within a instance the touch of Ricardo's hand neutralised the pain, the hurt, the revenge that I was feeling. I felt like I was value when it came to Ricardo and that means a lot. I gave them the last look before I left with Ricardo. I wanted to feel nothing for them anymore but if I said that I was lying. One is my blood sister that I've only known for properly for like 2 years and the other was who I'd thought was the love of my life. Water started to form in my eyes and that's when I knew I had to get the hell out of here.
"Melissa" Ricardo called me from the pole outside the flat. I wiped my wet eyelashes.
"I'm sorry" he added.
"Yeah right?" I sarcastically sobbed.
"Put yourself in my position. What would you?" he asked.
"Do I have to answer?" I replied in a irritated tone.
"I'm sorry. It's just he's my good friend and if I did then I would just of been a back stabber. I'd rather get my own back stabbed just so you wouldn't get hurt" he said softly.
I smiled a little because he was so sweet, but I wasn't sure if he's playing his game just to win me over. So I started to walk to his car cause there was no point of us staying under the flat where everything went wrong for me.
"But you are a back stabber" I added thoroughly wiping my eyes.
"How?" he replied a bit confused.
"You like your best friend's girlfriend, don't you?" I said in a sly look and hopped in Ricardo's car.
"I ain't a back stabber, or a paigon because of that" he assured.
"How?"
"Because it's not like me and you was doing a thing behind his back. We was just friends, he trusted me and trusted you. It was the little things that made me like you or think to myself 'rahh Jerome's one lucky man you know'," he said getting into the car.
"It was little things like the way you was smile every time you approached someone. Like the way you look at me every time I'd look a prank on you even when your pissed with me. Your touch, your soft hands..." He added as he realise he was kind of putting himself out there.
"I literally can go on but you know" he blushed.
I smiled and hid my face. Now I became shy and it felt great knowing someone appreciates you and likes you.
"And one more thing" he added as he turned on the car engine.
"What's that?" I replied putting on my seatbelt.
"I don't like my bestfriend's girl... I'm in love with her" and the he drove off.
Journey was silent, I couldn't believe he's in love with me. I haven't gave that vibe to. I guess I'll never know. He drove to his place and like before no-one in. I could get over how expensive and lovely this house was.
"Do you want me to get you something to eat or drink he said going to the kitchen when I made my way into the living room"
"Just a glass of water thanks" I replied.
I sat on the couch and kept going over and over in my head about Jerome and Carla. Then I kept thinking I have feelings for Ricardo. Just so much stuff in my head going wrong in many different ways.
Ricardo came in with my water and I drank some so it could wash all the thoughts out my head. Ricardo sat next to me and then I started to get this feeling in my below area. I'm thinking what the fxck? This has never happened before, and this was not me wanting to take a piss.
I looked at Ricardo and the feeling below became more powerful and I starting to think "Oh God". So to try and solve it and cross my legs really tight. I couldn't believe I was feeling this way towards Ricardo right now.
"Ermm Ricardo" I struggled to say and he looked up at me.
"What if I told you, I may have feelings for you?" I asked and stupidly asked as well.
His face lit up.
"Well do you?" He asked
"Ermmmmmmm" I replied.
"Well If you do then I guess it would be the start of something beautiful" he replied with a smile on his face.
In my head I wanted to, but I know I didn't because I know I'm still in love with Jerome but my heart just wants to be loved and only loved.
"I know your hurting, and I just want to hold you, comfort you. It really hurts me seeing you like this" Ricardo said.
I gave him a warming hug and tears fell out my eyes. Everything bad HAS to happen to me like I'm the target. It felt like he didn't want to go. It was so cute and I felt really special how much I mean to him. Finally as we pulled away I went in to kiss him and he let me. The tears on my cheeks touched gently on his as I tried to wash away my pain by kissing Ricardo knowing this kiss is a big deal for him. I felt bad for a minute I can admit. When we pulled away he was smiling and I faked smiled back. I knew I was always physically attracted to him from Primary School and I always will be but I could kiss the world most sexist man on earth and still wouldn't take away the damage Jerome and Carla cause on my heart.
"I'm going to go for a walk for about 5 minutes. I need to clear my head" I informed Ricardo.
"Okay. Do you want me to come with you?" He asked politely.
"No thanks, I'll be fine" I replied and then walked out the house. I walked and walked. Cried and cried. Thought and thought and I knew I'm literally broken. I've been out for like 2 hours and still don't feel any better. Missed calls from Jerome and Ricardo and I didn't bother to even read their name. Most of the time I stood near the alleyway just looking around. I started to feel really tired because of all the crying I've been doing today. I looked up in the sky and thought of my mum. I could picture if she was alive, I would be with her right now and she will comfort me in the ways I needed to be.
A tear fell out my eyes when suddenly something pulled me into the alleyway. It was really strong and I tried to push away and fight away as much as I could. The man pushed himself on me as he started to take off his jeans. I pleaded the man to let me go. I even told him I'll give him money when I know I don't have much. He didn't care and carried on. I just wanted wake up from this horrible dream but this was no dream. I screamed and cried but nothing.
Who knew my first time was me getting raped.
