Chapter 28
On the floor in complete and utter pain. I found the courage to look up at him from a low angle so the hooded hide his identity. My vision was blurred but I saw the features of the rapist and the skin tone. His skin was very fear, like he could of been white or fear skinned. The his nose was quite large from a low angle and his eyebrows where quite think. I only glimpsed him for about two seconds and then he walked off, fearless out of the alleyway.
I slowly sat up so I don't activate the pain. My vision started to become much clearer. I was terrified to noticed blood on the floor near my crouch area. Now I could understand the agonising pain coming in that area. I looked for my phone in my pocket and it was no longer there. The rapist also robbed me. That stupid prick. I wanted to first time to be special, with Jerome aswell. But instead the worst to happen... rape.
I covered my face and cried some more. I wanted to hide my problems, my pain, my life, my heart, my mind and the embarrassment. I know my life isn't perfect and will never be. I can't change time to save myself and that was the sad thing about it. I looked around with my tear fill eyes trying to analyse where the hell I am. I forgot how I got here to get back to Ricardo's house. I'm lost... I think.
Someone walked into the alleyway.
"Melissa!" she screamed.
I looked up and saw one of the care home ladies called Dawn that looked after me. I had no words to say.
"Are you okay?" she asked really concerned. I didn't reply or even look at her.
"Melissa speak to me please. I want to help" she said bending down to my level. I still gave her no reply. She looked down and noticed the blood coming from me.
"We need to get you to the hospital" she exclaimed with terror in her eyes.
"I'll be fine" I finally answered with no emotion in my face.
She was puzzled on why I was acting this way.
"Are you hiding something Melissa?" she questioned me.
"Please leave me" I replied trying my best not to have a croak in my voice when I said that. Dawn didn't back down and I always remember her being like that. I just wanted to be left the hell alone.
"Dawn! Please leaveee meee alonee! Please" I pleaded so hard. She looked at me and noticed she wasn't wanted. She looked sad and I know she was trying to help but I didn't want it. She left me in my state and I was alone and isolated as I asked.
I got up and then walked around a bit. I had no idea where I was and had no idea how I can get in contact with someone to help me. I was in pain, my mood has passed the core in the earth. I know I looked ridiculous walking the road with blood running down my thighs, my hair frizzy and my clothes ripped. I can hear people stopping in there's tracks to watch how pathetic I looked, but I didn't care. I kept a straight face and carried on walking. I watched little kids look terrified and pointing at me and questioning their parents why I look like that, but I didn't care. I had a couple of people stop me to asked if I was okay and if I need an ambulance, but I didn't care and I ignored them. Good looking boys seeing me at my worst, still didn't care. What ever happened, I didn't care. People are quick to prejudice against me when they don't think or realise there is a back story to why I look how I look. Why are us humans so judge mental and materialistic? It something we all need to work on, or maybe think outside the box. There's always a reason for something... Always!
Something suddenly caught my wet eyes. It looked really familiar. I haven't visited this place in forever. I was always afraid to visit this place. I've never found it in my soul to go there. But my heart will always have two important people with me that is no longer here. The place is called "The Cemetery".
Walking in to see a million gravestones. I took a deep breath to prepare myself. I stood still at a particular gravestone. My fathers. I knew he done horrible things in his life but he was making a change and setting everything right. I miss him a lot and after all, he is my father. He was turning out to be a great man and I know if he was still here, me and Carla's relationship would have been miles better. No betrayal and daddy wouldn't tolerate the kind of girl Carla is lol. That would have to be fixed asap. Danny's great but it would be the three of us together... Brother, sisters and father. Perfect.
"I miss you" I whispered and blew a kiss to my fathers gravestone. I kept on walking on seeing so much of the gravestones. Then finally I got to my mothers. I heart stopped and tears already started to automatically form. I really missed mum. He smile, her voice, her touch, her motherly love. It would have been totally different if she was here right now and that's what upsets me the most. She'll comfort me if i need it. Her advice would be spot on and I miss the best friend relationship me and mum had. No-one has had that kind of relationship with me.. ever.. except her. I cried my eyes out. I really miss her and up til this day I cannot believe she's gone.
"Mum" I cried as I read her gravestone. I lay right next to her and slowly rubbed her gravestone.
"The best mum ever should be added on that gravestone" I whispered to myself. I started to feel like I was going mad and then my eyes became blurred and I didn't know why. Then it just clicked. I'm still bleeding. I must be drenched in blood by now. The irony of my death mother right next to me and it feeling like my time to go right now. I laid there next to my mum, face up to the sky.
"I'm coming mum" I mimed.
"We're going to be together again" I said and lost viewing connection from my eye. Just pitch black.
