Are you?
What is keeping you
So far from me?
How long?
How long, I plead,
Will I remain suffering here
In the flames of this Hell
My memories have created?
Why can't I burn them up,
too, with the wings
I gave to you?
Why can't I shoot my heart
With that same gun
Whose bullet tore through you?
Why can't I survive in the silence
That I stutter through for you?
Why can't I escape
This darkness?
In my veins,
In my mind,
In you...
My guilt...
The guilt of a thousand knives..
Of a thousand souls...
As many lives as my words have taken.
Including yours...
Why can't that be devoured
Just as my mind was,
By the hatred I contain
For myself?
Why do I condemn myself
For every lie that has poisoned these lips?
Am I such a horrid
Abomination
That I can't even love myself?
If not,
Then, pray, what could it be?
This feeling in my heart,
Like a thousand needles.
Like an emptiness I can't fill?
What is this cold voice in my head?
Whose is it?
It isn't mine...
Could it be...?
No...
You're hiding from me...
Are you still afraid?
Afraid of what I've done to you?
Or of what I could still do?
