YOU BACK? (sons of anarchy/jax teller)

Mixed emotions

I woke up to the sun shining right in my eyes, I opened my eyes and turned to what I thought was Jax but there only was a pillow. I got up and looked what time it was, it was a bit past 7 in the morning. I decided to get a shower and clean my self up from last night. When I was ready with the shower the time was a quarter to eight so I had a bit more than an hour until my first day at St:Thomas would start. I got my clothes on and lifted my hair to a bun. I went out of the room with my bags ready to work and to sleep in my own bed. I dropped my bags by the bar and got a cup of coffee. I sipped my coffee and thought where Jax would have gone. The last night party was big and you could see it in here. There where a few hundred of bottles everywhere and Tig lying on the pool table with a hooker. I finished my coffee, took my bags and walked to my car. I looked at the bikes and everyone's where there except for Jaxes. I sat in my car and threw the bags next to me. I started driving away when I started thinking about Jax. Does he have feelings for me or not. Its not his first time he said he loves me but then he just leaves and does not talk to me but he goes back to all the hookers. Where I one night stand just like the hookers. I puled up to St:Thomas and parked my car next to the door where was a sign with big letters STAFF. I went strait to my room and changed my clothes to a green t shirt and a pair of green pants. I sat by the table and logged in to my account on the computer. *KNOCK KNOCK. "Come in" I said in a loud voice. Tim came in and gave me a stack of papers "Good your here, Linda told me to give these to you" he said. I looked at the papers for a while. There was my schedule I had an operation today and then I was going to bee in the ER. "You should get ready for you surgery" he said and started walking out. "Shes not my mother-in-law" I said and he looked a bit surprised I would even talk about it. "It does'nt mater" he said shaking his head. "Really" I said and looked at him. he did not say anything he opened the door and walked out. I really don't need this now. I glimced at the paper who my patient would be. My patient was a two month old babby girl with heart failure and her kidneys did not work like they should. I went out of my room and locked the door after me. I started walking towards the operation room until someone took a grip of my hand. "Tia we need to talk" I heard a familiar voice, I turned around and saw Jax, Tig, Chibs and Happy. "No we don't" I said and drew my hand from his and shaking my head"I need to get ready for a surgery" I told him, the rest of the guys just watched us. I just walked away a bit pissed. I came to the hall where we needed to scrub our hands and I needed to get Jax and Tim out of my head. I had my gloves on me and ready to save the little girls life. 

After a two hours of a long surgery I saved the little babbys life, I was happy of my self. I walked to my office and unlocked it, I walked inside and saw the boys sitting on my couch and my chair. "I really need to talk to you" Jax said and walked towards me"How did you guys get in" I asked and took a step back from Jax. "That hot blonde woman let us in..Lin...umm...Linda" Tig said clearly having a vision of her in his mind. "You know why I left this morning" Jax started. " I was not sure how I felt of the si.." *KNOCK KNOCK. I heard someone knock on my door. "Don't open it" Jax commanded me. I went to the door and opened it. "Tia, I just wanted to tell you that you did a good job" Linda told me. "Thank you" I thanked her. She walked away and said "keep up the good work" I started smiling instantly. I left the door open and commanded Chibs, Tig and Happy out. "Lets talk then" I said. We did not say anything. I think We did not know what to say. "I don't know why I left, I was not sure of my feeling for you, the whole fact that we where together again" he started. "Really, your not sure of your feeling, last night I was'nt sure about my feeling for you but you got me in bed anyways" I told him. His phone started ringing and he answered. At the same time I heard a knock on the door, I opened it and was sure that it was Chibs or one of the guys. "what now" I snapped."umm. I was going to ask your opinion on my surgery" Tim said. " But if your in the middle of something I'll just ask someone else" He continued. I was just about to answer until Jax said "I need to go, but we'll finish this conversation at your place" he said and came closer. he cupped my cheeks and gave me a powerful but gentle kiss. that's when I could not hold back my smile anymore. He was still cupping my cheeks and was really close to me, so close I could feel his breath on my face. He gave me another kiss and smiled. He let go of my cheeks and started walking away. "No we'll not see each other if your dead" I said joking. He just laughed and walked away. "So the surgery" I said still smiling but focused on the papers. I started thinking of Jax and how his kiss made me calm down. Tim wanted me to assist him, and I wanted to help him. The surgery was going to be a bit hard but I could earn some respect if I did it. We went to the surgery hall getting ready. I still could not get Jax from my mind, I was'nt sure about how he felt for me or how I felt for him.