YOU BACK? (sons of anarchy/jax teller)

Winning heart?

I opened my house door, I turned around and gave John a wave. I had a lot to think about and I needed to make the decision for tomorrow.I walked to my kitchen to take a glass of water. When I turned around I saw Jax sitting there by the kitchen table. My heart almost jumped out of my chest. "What are you doing here?" I asked him in a strict voice. " Well you're not coming home and you didn't sell this place" he said to me. I was still surprised at how he came in. "That doesn't explain why you're here" I spat at him. " I'm worried about you, Your not your self" he told me. That's the truth I haven't been my self, not after what happened to Tim, or at what he did to me. "Who was the guy at the grave today with you" He asked me causing me to snap from my thoughts. "John" was all I said. "John who" He asked me. "My ex, He wanted me to go with him back to LA, and I'm really considering it" I said to him. I couldn't look him in the eyes and I felt how disappointed he was. " Before you got kidnapped we were talking about getting married and starting a family, then you got distant and didn't want to talk, to eat not to even sleep in the same bed, same house in fact and now your just going to move back to LA with your ex?" He said with tears in his eyes, and he never tears up. I couldn't say anything, not to even move. He stood up and came up to me now we just hade a few inches between us. Before I could pull away he kissed me, so passionately, so forgiving, so caring. Before I could answer he pulled away and looked me straight in my eyes, I could feel butterflies in my stomach and his look just burning. He took a step back and started to walk out of the door then he stopped, turned around and said. " Before you choose to leave come by the clubhouse, Janina and Derec had an announcement, and I want to see you" Before I could say anything he left and slammed the door after him. I fell on the floor just slammed by his kiss and his kindness towards me even though I have been a dick to him. I thought about taking a nap because I haven't slept in ages. I went to my bedroom and fell in my bed. I set my alarm at 5 pm. so that I could make myself ready to go to the clubhouse to make my decision and seeing Janina and hearing their announcement. But overall to see Jax. 

I woke to my alarm going of. I jumped out of bed and into the shower. After roughly an hour I was ready to go. I took my car keys from my table, jumped in my car and drove off. I pulled up to the clubhouse and it was packed with bodies. I parked my car at my usual spot and jumped out. When I was about to open the door I saw Chibs in my window and he opened it " Princess" She told me and helped me out. I didn't say anything. When he closed the car door I gave him a tight hug and said" I'm sorry for the past two weeks"" That's ok my dear" we pulled away from each other and he said " Everyone knows about that you may be leaving" My eyes went straight to the ground "That's ok if it's really what you want" Chibs said. " I dont Know" Was all I could say. We walked to the clubhouse and my eyes instantly looked at Jax and he was just staring at me, I gave him a cheeky smile when Janina basically jumped on me and gave a hug. " Now that everyone's here" She started she went and stand by Derek and I stood by Chibs " It's something we have known now for a month and...... I'm pregnant" Janina said in a screaming voice. I could tell she was so happy. " And I want Tia to be the babys godmother" Janina continued " And Jax to be the babys godfather" Derek finished Janinas sentence. Mine and Jaxes eyes just met and my mind just got more and more disturbed. While everyone was cheering for Janina and Derec all I could think of was what now. I cant leave charming and leave Janina here with a baby and I cant leave my goddaughter here without a godmother. I just can't.